th two retards

Farewell partayee :(

2010-05-28T22:44:00.000+08:00

Booo .
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:'(

CIP-Car Wash .

2010-05-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

Tons of fun . YAY .
Booo , sosad .

I'm baccccccck ! -.aaa

2010-05-28T21:34:00.000+08:00

Sports Day ;

F.you

2010-04-02T21:55:00.002+08:00

Can you stop copying ? -.-
What a bitch .

.aaa

2010-02-28T16:49:00.003+08:00

Aloha . Nyahaha .
Find me (:
Adios .

Syauqiyahhhh :(

2010-01-30T21:21:00.000+08:00

No more hairy guy t tease :(
So sad :(

" EY FATTY ! " HAHAHAHAHAHAH !

2010-01-17T20:27:00.001+08:00

HI :D Its been since long i've updated this blog . Blablablablabla . School's awesome . I love my life , I guess ? I'm enjoying math class . I dont know whaye . HAH . And i love my seating arrangement . Sat beside fremont (th most annoying , tating guyy in th class) But , he's actually a nice guyy , really . Err , Sha sat behind me . YAY ! :D:D &ling yun sat beside her . He's serious shit funneh . HAH . He called me fatty and shawty . HAHAHAHAHAHAH ! But he can be real annoying at times , serious . Fooh .

Kay , i'll seldom update th blog . Cos' i'll be busy w studies , boyfriend . HAHAHAHAHA . Kay kidding . Adios !

I saw 11.11 again ;

2010-01-08T23:37:00.001+08:00

I am sec 2 . NYAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH ! Baru sec 2 -.-
Mdm Rositah = Awesome giler babi nak mampos \m/
I love my english/co-form teacher cos' i'm taller than her .
I love th english book cos' its pink in colour .
Hate history cos' i dont loike th teacher .
Hate d&t cos' i dont loike th teacher .
I hate th fact that i'm th class chairperson :@ :@ :@ :@ :@ :@ :@ :@ :@ :( :( :( :'( :'(
I hate th fact that my life is ruined .
I hate th fact that every single thang has changed .
I hate th fact that my everlast shoes is giving me blisters -.-
I hate th fact that these thangs is affecting me in every wayy . Really .
I hate th fact that i kept saying his name out of a sudden . Serious maan -.-
I hate th fact that i have eyebags .
I hate th fact that this year is th streaming year .
I hate th fact that time flies veh fast .
I hate th fact that i kept thinking abt this matter every , every single day .
Mother fcukerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr .
I love th fact that people is using th word mother fcuker . Nyahah .
I hate th fact that i still love you .

OHH MY MOTHER FCUKER STOOPID DOG BLOODY BULLSHIT :O
Kay bye .

2010-01-05T19:15:00.002+08:00

I am so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so mother fcuker sad .
K bye .

Mum says i could get married when i'm 26 years old . NYAHAHAHAH !

2010-01-03T20:21:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow school . YAY !

2010-01-02T18:38:00.000+08:00

Stoopid . Stoopid . Stoopid dog . I am fcuking sad till i cry . Cos' yknow whaye ? Cos' my perfume is out of stock . Stoopid shop . Stoopid dog btol . And there's no accescories shop . I havent bought my cekak . Stoopid mall . Stoopid hougang point . Mum aint helping at all . Stoopid . Stoopid 2010 . Mother fcuker sad . Bye i.diot .

MOTHER

2010-01-02T16:57:00.001+08:00

People hate you cos' you're a bitch .
Mother fcuker bitch .
Mother fcuker liar .
Mother fcuker everythang .
For mother fcuking sake , why were you even born in this world ?!

" Dont worry , you can trust me "

Kepale bapak kau trust kau ! -.-

Waaaah sehyy , aku copy kau siol . Fuyoooh ! -.-

There's so many terase people in this world ;

2010-01-02T00:34:00.001+08:00

I spend th first day of 2010 arranging my school books . Awesomee -.- &its harder than i thought . My whole body is aching , for mother fcuking sake . Sheesh . &i had a tiff w mum . She says perangai aku macam hantu . I'll take tt as a compliment . HA.HA.HA. &since school's starting soon which is like 2 more days ? Is it ? Whatev , i have t remove my gorgeous purple , pink , brown nails . Booo :( &i cant stop playing th tik tok song again and again and again . HAH . I mean i'll be like dancing and singing suddenly . Nyahahah .

Raudhah ;
You're a guhreat friend , really . Tho sometimes we fight over th slightest teeny weeny stuffs , but i know you still love me . HAHAHA . Oteyy , serious . You're th oldest among this group yet sometimes i'm being sucha bitch by scolding you like i'm older than you -.- . Remember when's th first time we talked t each other ? Bus-stop , yes . Hahahahah . Thats th place where you asked whether i sembahyang or not . HAHAHA . How cute . Judging by your face , its obvious enough that you're a innocent , filial girl/daughter . Hahaha . But , we were th one who taught you t lie t your parents , taught you all those vulgarities , etc . I'm sorry , i'm really sorry for everythang tt i have done wrong t you . Scolding you , telling you t do this and that , throwing tantrums at you , occasionally . Hehe . Showing you th wtf face when i'm in a bad mood . I'm sorry if i ever make you angry or whatever . Really am . I love you (:

Syauqiyah ;
Hey you ! HAHAHA . I personally think you're th one whom i always fought w among sha and raudhah . Huahuahua . All th thangs i'm going t sayy here is not on purpose t get back on you or seeking my sweet revenge or whaat . You were th one who's close w sha at start while i was close w raudhah , but as times goes by its th vise versa . Boomz , everythang changed . Oteyy fineh , not everythang . Heh . I mean you changed . You've became a completely different person . But maybe you dont think that you've changed . I dont know . You lied t us . You told raudhah all th thangs that you're not supposed t tell which we kept from her t prevent her from getting hurt which comes back t th point you lied t us . Foooh , you should try reading em' at one shot . LOL , oteyy serious . Why you did that ? If you couldnt stand keeping th secret from her , couldnt stand us lying t her or couldnt stand keeping this secret from her , you could have told us (there is a difference between this sentence and th first sentence , HAH ) You dont have t lied t us . Its like so saddening t watched you changed into a complete different person when actually you were a veh nice girl when i met you at first . I'm not being sarcastic or whaat , i mean it like seriously *insertseriousface* You've changed ever since i dont know when -.- Heh . &about th meow thingy ( i dont wanna say th front word , lol ) you apologised but you did it again . I mean i'm not saying you couldnt *insert th front word* at all cos' i myself *insert th front word* people before . HAHA . But at least know your limits can ? I mean its like seriously obvious that even "others" could tell . You could try and put yourself in my shoes and feel th tating-ness . Seriously . I'm saying all this cos' i dont want you t be like this . I dont want this group t hate each other . I mean whats th purpose of this friendship if we all hate each other , keeping secrets from each other , lying t each other and badmouthing each other ? -.- ( I am referring t myself too , oteyy . ) I dont want us ( me and you ) t walked pass each other during band w/o smiling/talking/tegor-ing like one mother fcuker strangers . We're like friends but strangers . Whaat is this maan ? Hah . You could tell us what thangs you're not satisfied of . Its not like we're gonna kill you or somethang . Hahaha . I can sense that somehow you feel unfair that me and sha will always be th one infront while you and raudhah will be walking behind us . We could changed that , really . And i am going t apologise t you . Yes i am . I'm gonna say sorry for saying all those harsh words t you before . Sorry for saying vulgarities at you . Padahal you're older than me and i'm like th youngest among all of you -.- Hehehe . Sorry for making you fcuked up , angry , tak puas hati at/w me . Somehow i sense you feel left out whenever you're w me and sha . &i'm sorry for that too . I'm at fault , you're at fault too . If you reallyreally honestly dont think that you're not at fault at all , then i really dont know what else i should say . Maybe aft reading this , you'll hate me or even more . I dont know . If you really think whatever i have said is mother fcuker bullshit and means nothang t you at all , then we'll continue w this friendship stranger hating thingy . Whatever it is , i still love you oteyy .

Shahidahh ;
Kau nyer turn lak . Nyahahhahaha . I just cant forget th first time that we met . We hate each other like totally . HAHAHA . But we're like mother fcuker bestfriends now . HAHAHA . But we still had some arguement over some stuffs :D But we still love each other . Nyahahahah ! I wanna thank you . Thank you for makin' up lame jokes which makes me laugh everytime ( its th fact , oteyy ) Thank you for convincing me that he really loves me at that point of time . Thank you for not giving up on me . Thank you for comforting me . Thank you for cheering me up when i'm down . Thank you for your advises . Thank you for being there when i need you . Thank you for being my bestfriend . There's too many thangs t thank you . We did alot of crazye stuffs together and i want thangs t stay like this , forever ? Hehehe . Oteyy , th sorry part . HAHAHA . Well , i needa say sorry when i showed my tak puas hati at you , occasionally . HEH . Sorry for not being there for you when you need me like seriously . Sorry for tating you at times . HAHAHA . Sorry if somehow i have hurt you w what i've said . I'm sorry for everythang . Thank you for everythang . Lets just pray we'll not drift apart , oteyy ?! HAHAHA . Stop thinking negatively . I'll be there for you whatever it is . I'll be there for you if you quarrel w blabla . Nyahah . I'll be there for you if you're sad . Be there for you when you're happy . Be there for you when you cry . Yarh , everythang . Nyahahhahahahha . I love you . Wo ai ni , bestfriend (:

I love you all , every single one of you . Like hell yeah . This group will be incomplete w/o anyone of you . I mean it .

Lets ignore you bitch ;

2010-01-01T14:39:00.000+08:00

Dear 010110 ,

I am going t be strong .
I am going t save monehh .
I am going t study hard .
I am going t hate you bitch .
I am going t be happy .

I will cherish every single thang that i have even th slightest teeny weeny stuffs .
I will lose weight .
I will jump everyday t grow taller . ( i bet it wont help -.- )
I will refrain myself from eating in th middle of th night .
I will refrain myself from using th laptop unless necessary .
I will spend my time wisely .
I will try not t be jealous over th slightest teeny weeny stuffs .
I will try not t be impulse .
I will wake up from my senses and face th cruel reality .
I will accept th fact that i'm short and fat .
I will stop being selfish .
I will stop being self-centred .
I will treat my gorgeous cat better .
I will be a filial daughter . ( i wonder when will tt happened . HAH )
I will stop trusting you bitch .
I will stop being an i.diot .
I will be happy .

I wont stop being a stalker .
I wont stop gossiping about people that i reallyreally abhor .
I wont stop seeking my sweet revenge .
I wont stop hating you bitch .
I wont stop being happy .

T hell w 2009 , Alohaa 2010 .

I'm just bored . HAH . I should have heed sha's advice . Damn you .

Sex therapy is in session ; seduce and get seduced .

2009-12-31T22:01:00.002+08:00

I am bored . Heh . Anyhoos , sis bought this magazine&i saw this page of breakup , breakdown . Seems interesting . What does a guyy go thru aft breakup ? Cry ? Dive head first into rebound sex ? Cody Lim spill th beans on how guys really deal w Splitsville . Bleahs .

" Yes , men cry . Even th toughest jock and manliest man will shed buckets if his heart is broken "
" One month is about th longest time a guyy would need t return t his normal life and routine "

" Breakups are not fun for anyone , not even th most emotionally hardened of men . Nothing hurts more than being rejected or being dumped by someone you love . Go easy on us - we're in pain too . We just dont want t show it . "

Hard t believe , seriously . Bleahs .

I'm watching High School Musical 3 at disney channel .
I'm singing High School Musical 3 songs .
I think i should stop reading certain people blogs cos' i'll feel veh ...
I'm hungraye .
I feel like dancing .
:'(
:(
:DDDDDD

Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . Happy New Year . HappyNewYear . HAPPY NEW YEAR !

Eventho its only 10.03PM . HAH .

I love all of you . Every single one of you . Kay bye .

You can have her then , bye .

2009-12-31T19:48:00.001+08:00

Get this straight . We're not th same , bitch . Stoopid dog . Anyhoos , went gym w bandmates at anchorvale :D I woke up late so I was kinda late , heh . &I lose 2kg of fats , can you believe it ?!?! HAH , awesomee :DD But I guess i've gain fats back cos' I ate two bowls of nasi lemak at sha house . HAHAHA . Whaat ? I dint eat breakfast siol . HEH . Gossip a.lot w sha . Nyahaha . Geee , just a few more hours t 2010 . Scream people :DD Brand new year . Brand new attitude . Brand new handphone , oteyy not tt new . HEH . Brand new boyfriends . HAH , kidding -.- Oteyy , i'm off . Adios ! Haapy New Year ! :DD

2009-12-31T17:30:00.002+08:00

Huda is beside me . She forced me to post . She looks AWESOME ! and Gorgeous ! (bitch , jgn nak copy bodoh)
kay . tcr . bye .

Babi kau arh sial ;

2009-12-31T01:49:00.000+08:00

No pictures just shut up . I've got loads of thangs t sayy but i dont know where t start . I'm fcuking annoyed w every single thangs . I'm feeling v.fcuked up now . Serious shit man . Oteyy , i'll try t be nice -.- Sleepover at aunt house was , boomz . Reached aunt house ard 9-10+ PM ? I dont know , blabla . I miss painting nails w em' . I miss fighting w em' over pillows . I miss eating w em' . I miss laughing w em' . I miss their hilarious jokes . I miss using wawa's phone . I miss their story-telling session . I miss watching power rangers shows w those annoying yet adorable kids . I kinda like tt show . HAHAHA . I miss hearing em' cry . HAHAHA . I miss dancing w em' . I miss singing w em' . I love my cousins . I love em' all . Ohh yarh , dint watch movie w cliques . Somehow i was being stood up . Yeah , whatev . But then aft much discussions w cousins&aunt , we decided t watch alvin&th chipmunks movie together since i reallyreally want t watch . How sweet . HAH , watched at causeway point . Th queue was *thumbs up* -.- Panjang nak mampos . In th end we didnt watched , not because of th long queue but almost all th seats were taken&th only vacant seats was near t th screen . So yeah , how can i not be f.fedup ? I get my hopes up and i watch em' fall each time -.- Serious shit man . Stoopid movie . Babi btol . Decided t eat ice-cream next . Fooh . Kinda cheered me up . Hah . Head t woodlands t get our bags before heading back home . I'm exhausted . F.exhausted . Can't stay for another night cos' of mum . Boo . Its oteyy anywayy , cos' i dint bring enough bra&panties , anyhoos . Hahahahahahahahahahah . &i'm seriously annoyed w this stoopid flu . I kept sneezing non-stop . Stoopid dog btol . Was f.annoyed abt tt and was even fcuked up when i read __________ _____ -.- Bloody shit you man , seriously . I just feel like giving you one tight slap , sumbat tissue hingus aku pat mulut kau sia , serious -.- Stoopid dog btol . &i cant wait t go t school and meet sha all . I know i've said it countless time . HAH . &i'll be having countdown 2010 via msn w huimin tmr . HAHAHA , how cute . But , i wanna watch th fireworks :( Booo . Anyhoos , will be fighting more often w sis over laptop since she has finished her 'retake exams' . Damn it . I better get sleeping now , will be going gym w bandmates tmr , i mean todaye . Awesomeee . Hee :D Ohh yarh . Edmund hairy tan , i'm not angry at you luhh .Was in a bad mood just now , sorraye eyy (: Oteyy , adios .

Somehow its ____ .

2009-12-29T14:53:00.000+08:00

The greatest irony of love ;

Loving th right person at th wrong time .
Having th wrong person when th time is right .
And finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life .

Got it from tumblr . HEH . Tumblr seems awesome . Prolly gonna use it , PROLLY .

FCUK

2009-12-28T22:21:00.003+08:00

FCUK YOU.
FCUK YOU.
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FCUK YOU.

YOU.

Just drop dead luhh , seriously .

Fcuk you.

YOU.

I miss you too N.iman (:

2009-12-28T20:49:00.004+08:00

:D Band was awesome todayye . Had band practice . Blablabla . Then partaye time . Nyahah . I mean , christmas celebration . For th first time , i received&gave christmas gift . Awesome huh . Then played this game . &i get sabotage by huimin&th rest of th seniors . Thanks ah . Needa do some forfeit . Bleahs . Head t compass w cliques&prolly gg gym w em' this thurs since they invite me :D Awesomee . Was gg down th escalator when fid called me saying tt she saw me , so went t th lrt thr&boomz . Hah , kinda miss em' . Oteyy fine-h , miss em' . Nyahahah . Went mac w syuks , fid went home . What a coincidence , saw syasya and gang . HAHAH .

Syasya : Eyy huda . *show th shockest selenger yet cute face i've ever seen*
Me : *Laughing like hell*

Serious shit cute siol . Hahahahah . Syuk crazaye&because of you syuk , yes you . You scared th hell out of me saying th setan gondol will swingswing inside my long nails and i finally decide t cut em' all . GRRRRRRRRRRR . But still , i love you . HAHAHA . Adios

Ohh wait !

This guyy won . Urgh , guess as much . But still , i love you sylvia \m/ bye .

- He's not hot at all -.-

Oteyy wait . HAH . Prolly overnighting at aunt house tmr which is at woodlands . &th day aft tt will be gg out w th 3 besties t catch a movie at tamp , prolly . Since sha have t go back early . Boooo . Nehmind , at least i get t go out w em' :D:D Oteyy oteyy . BYE .

Sylvia \m/

2009-12-27T21:45:00.000+08:00

Mum : Nurul , vote siaper ?

Me : Sylvia arh , duhh .

Mum : Asal sylvia ? Klau kau vote dier , aku tak kasik kau duit kluar .

Me : Wth ?!

Mum : *laughs*&*Walk away*

-.- How cute .

Whatever happens tonight , i still love you .

\m/

86 400 seconds ;

2009-12-27T18:19:00.001+08:00

I'm having band tomorrow .
I'm pissed off w mum and she's trying t cheer me up w sweets -.- How cute . Hahaha .
Prolly gg t watch Alvin&th chipmunks 2 movie . PROLLY .
I miss a.lot of people .
I wanna date a real vampire .
I dont understand why sha refused t update this blog .
I wanna eat ice-cream .
I wanna have tt gorgeous vaio pink laptop .
I wanna go out .
My cat is gorgeous but evil .
I am chatting w syuks .
I miss nadzirah .
I miss nasrah .
I miss rizkah .
I miss zi yi .
I miss umairah
I miss asyraf .
I miss zakaria .
I miss fadzil .
I miss irfan ( th tall , skinny one )
I miss hasrie .
I miss em' all .
Blablabla .
I'm hungraye .
I'm trying t be happy .
*LAUGHSLAUGHSLAUGHS*
I love my cat tails
ADIOS .
BYE CHEESEPIE .

Cause i'm easily jealous ;

2009-12-27T01:12:00.002+08:00

I dont fcuking understand , ___________________________ , WTF ?
Ira thought tt i've forgotten abt her , but i didnt . HAHAHA .
Sha didnt bought th same school bag as me (different in colour tho) cos' she thought tt i'll be angry at her -.- Bacen btol .
I found myself staring at th yellow banana , wtf ?
I am out of monehh .
I kept thinking abt tt gorgeous , 38 bucks pink headphones .
I am singing in th middle of th night .
I am addicted t two songs .
I just realised tt school's opening soon and i mean real soon .
I've not yet balut my books . Hahhahhahaah .
I am not prepared for school but s.excited .
I need t lose weight , badly .
I wanna go gym .
I am texting Huimin&tt monsterr .
I am going bonkerz .

"It’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It’s crazy when you want to let go, you keep holding on, but when you want to move on but you’re stuck right where you started. And it’s weird how feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want, and how you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start."

Edmund Hairy Tan , cheer up luhh you hairyyyy guyy ! :D

2009-12-26T20:05:00.002+08:00

My brother says : " All boys are th same , cheesepie "

I dont get you .
Bye .

Dilemma ;

2009-12-26T18:36:00.029+08:00

Alvin&th Chipmunks or Avatar 3D ? Urgh , i'm in dilemma here eventho mum has yet t approve of me watching movie . Hee . Alvin and th Chipmunks 2 trailer seems awesome . I love tt chipette who wore specs . Idk her name but she looks cute . She's hairy . Lovee th hair :D HAHAHAHAHAH . Aweomeee . Eheh . But i wanna watch avatar in 3D , th effect will be so boomz . Hahaha . But i wanna watch those cute hairy chipmunks and chipette singing&dancing :( Urgh , what a mother fcuker , can i watch both ?! Serious shit man , i'm so exhausted . I slept at 5A.M yest , whatcha expect . My whole body's aching :( Boooo . Oteyy , adios :D

Ohh yarh , its 7.30 PM&i havent bath(:

2009-12-26T16:27:00.003+08:00

Bye .

Lets die .

2009-12-25T19:27:00.001+08:00

" Nobody really cares if you’re miserable, so you might as well be happy . "

I think i should be happy . Dufus much .

Love her .

2009-12-25T19:16:00.000+08:00

" I love Syukriah . What more can i say ? "

Webcammed ;

2009-12-25T14:15:00.002+08:00

Webcammed w this samdol yest till 1+ . Serious shit funneh . I love t use capslock :D

IDK what th hell he's doing .

I forgot what i did till he did that face . HAH .

HAHAHAHHA .

I showed my feet t him&he give me that face . HAHAHHAHA .

He's shocked/selenger face reminds me of Mahadhir . HAHAHHA . But mahadhir's more awesomeee . HAHAHA . Cant believe i just praised him . Oteyy , adios . :D

HOHOHO , Merry Christmas ! :D

2009-12-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

Went Ion orchard todayyye .
Mum refuses t let me watch movie cos' i watch too much of em'
I'm begging mum .
I kinda miss blablablablablablablablablablablablablablablablabla . Heh .
I love huimin :D
Roses :D Hehe . There's a story behind it .

I've been getting angryy over th slightest teeny weeny stuffs ; Moodswings

2009-12-24T00:19:00.002+08:00

I'm going bonkers . School's starting soon . Plain lazy t complete th 2 math papers . Any kind-hearted handsome , gorgeous person volunteering ? :D Ohh yeah , totally forgot there's science too :( Sexual reproduction chapter *shows that kind of look* You guyss are bound t love that chapter , dont cha ? *thumbs up* Hahahahah . Ohh yarh , went school todayye&saw th sec ones . Pee-uuuu . Eirk . More tall people , awesome btol . Pfft . &i guess , i'll be gg t this new shopping mall tmr . Awesomee . Fabulous . Seriously , i cant wait t start school next year . Hahahahha . Cant wait t admire my handsome laling&gorgeous teacher which is a guyy , in class . Cant wait t sneak behind school t have our recess there :D Cant wait t tease th sec ones . I mean , cant wait t make friends w th sec ones :D Cant wait . Cant wait . Cant wait . Yknow whaat ? My instinct tells me they'll tease me short . -.- Awesomee . Hahahahah :D Awesomeeeeeee . Yknow whaat ? I wanna watch Alvin&th Chipmunks 2 :( I wanna watch Th princess and th frog :D I wanna watch Avatar 3D *thumbs up* I wanna watch Th fourth Kind . Yknow whaat ? I've lost alot of thangs this year , alot . Hah . This is syuks fault , thinking too much abt her life which led me t be thinking about mine -.- Wtf have i been talking ? Hah , i know this is th third post . Just shut up and read this bullshits . Kay adios . Its 24th , HA.HA.HA -.-

Awesome ;

2009-12-23T18:17:00.000+08:00

3 easiest way t die :

1. Puff a cigarette daily
-you'll die 10 years early

2. Drink alcohol daily
-you'll die 30 years early

3. Love someone who doesn't love you back .
-you'll die daily

\m/

2009-12-23T17:49:00.006+08:00

I'm just gg t post a few awesome quotes . Hah . They have awesome names . *thumbs up*

The truth will set you free. But first, it will piss you off.

-Gloria Steinem

Most truths are so naked that people feel sorry for them and cover them up, at least a little bit.

-Edward R . Murrow

There are no whole truths: all truths are half-truths. It is trying to treat them as whole truths that plays the devil.

-Alfred White Northhead

When you are content to be simply yourself and don't compare or compete, everybody will respect you.

-Lao Tzu

Those who cannot learn from history are doomed to repeat it.

-George Santayana

History repeats itself, first as tragedy, second as farce.

-Karl Marx

Well behaved women rarely make history.

-Laurel Thatcher Ulrich

If you want anything said, ask a man. If you want something done, ask a woman.

-Margaret Thatcher

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.

-Alexander Graham Bell

Wise men talk because they have something to say; fools, because they have to say something.

-Plato

Go to Heaven for the climate, Hell for the company.

-Mark Twain

Reality is the name we give to our disappointments.

-Masen cooley

Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn't go away.

-Philip K. Dick

Pain is real when you get other people to believe in it. If no one believes in it but you, your pain is madness or hysteria.

-Naomi Wolf

Forgive your enemies, but never forget their names.

-John F. Kennedy

You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life.

-Winston Churchill

I'll stop here . Adios awesome .

Sometimes i really wonder why its so hard t be happy .

2009-12-22T20:05:00.000+08:00

I just feel like killing people right now . But i saw this hairy rambutan which reminds me of edmund's hairy leg . HAHAHAHAHAHA . Which make me laugh for a moment . Good enough . Boo .

Avatar ;

2009-12-21T22:29:00.003+08:00

:D :D Th movie , avatar was awesomeeeeeee . You should watch it :D Kay bye . HAHAHAHHA . Ohh yarh , theres alot of my face down there *look down* HAHAHAHAHAH . Kay bye . Ohh wait ! I wore pink todaye *thumbs up* :D Kay bye .

Hi . HAH . I just wanna say I chatt w this gay down here . HAHHA . Oteyy , kidding . This is th guy in my dream who made sandwhiches for me :D *thumbs up* Oteyy , this time's for real . Bye .

My cat's gorgeous :D

2009-12-20T20:20:00.000+08:00

Sleepyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy . If it wasnt for mum who woke us up at 12+ , i wouldnt had felt this sleepy . Tsk . Ohh&guess whaat , i dreamt of shahendra making sandwhiches for me . HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH ! &his sandwhiches taste good . I could even taste it -.- Seriously , so funneh . Why th hell did i even dream about this ? HAHA . Oteyyy , head t cp&kovan , bought school stuffs . Alr bought school shoes , left school books . &i saw this gorgeous pink earpiece which cost 38 bucks . But sis wouldnt let me buy it :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( Boooooooooooooooo :'( Fine-h . Blablablablabla . Prolly gg school tmr . I have no idea how t tie my hair . Hah . Fine-h , adios .

Anger&hatred ;

2009-12-19T19:08:00.000+08:00

"Never forget what a man says t you when he is angry ."

- Henry Ward Beecher .

&listen t th thunder ;

2009-12-19T13:21:00.000+08:00

Maaaaaaaak , aku nyer salah lak . Yarh , whats th diff if you knew all this ? Misunderstandings , my fault . Th vise versa , also my fault . Everything my fault from th start kaan ? Sec one , dah naive , lepastu childish lak . Wanna trust girls back ? HA.HA.HA.

Oteyyyyy . I woke up at 12 . Ha.ha.ha . It means i havent bath . Awesomee . *thumbs up* Ohh yeah , tight scheduled next week . HAH , kidding . Nyahaha . Next week , two days of band practice , movie day out w family which include my dad . Thats rare . Math remedial , i wasnt chosen t go but wanna meet sha , so i'll go . Eheeeh . Can you believe it , i havent bought my school books . Sheesh . Oteyy , i wanna watch bolt at teevee . Adios .

IRAAAAAAAAAAAAAA&SYUUKKKKKKKKKKKKKKS BACKKKKKKKKKK !

Marina Barrage ;

2009-12-19T00:22:00.012+08:00

Gorgeous huh ?

I look so fat siol .

HAHAHAH . Maaaaaaak , selenger siol .

HAH , i just love t pose tt wayy . Nyahahah .

HAHAHAHAH :D

Awesomeeeeeeee . Love this :D

Outing w bandmates . Meet up w wanling&th others first . Blablabla . Wait for th rest t come&i saw i saw i saw v.familiar faces , v.familiar . &sudd a whole lot of them came , woaah . Was showing tt stoopid shock face . HAH . Anyhoos , went t marina barrage . I just cant believed mum let me go tt far . Hahahhaha . So yeah , played w th water there . Was f.wet . Hah , kinda fun . Splash water here , splash water there . Aft tt , went t fly kite . Th weather was awesome . Its just tt , i dont know how t fly it . Gagagaga . It did fly but not tt high . Eheh . I thought i was late for home cause its nearly 7 , so we decided t take taxi . Its so hard t find one . Then i saw a taxi at th opposite side , i ran across like one mother f.retard , seriously . &th driver just cant shut th fcuk up . I'm alr in a state of anxiety&he kept blabbering abt th peak hour -.- Wtf . Alighted at cp&took another taxi cos' th driver is tati8ng&freaked me out , besides its nearly 8.00 & when i reached home , mum didnt say anythang -.- Wtf , waste my monehh siol . Blablablablablablablablablablablablablablablabla .

Scroll down .

Happy Sexayyee Fourteen Birthday T LINGLING !

Nyahahahhahahahahahahha ! Wo ai n i :D

Twist story ;

2009-12-18T00:03:00.002+08:00

Its THREE , dumbass !

Ohh , look whos talking . You can say whatever you want now . Childish , how awesomeee . Guys . I see you got your supporters huh . Awesomeeeeee .

Bewildered state ;

2009-12-17T21:29:00.003+08:00

" Maybe its th things i say . Maybe i should think before i speak . But i thought tt i knew enough t know myself&do whats right for me . It all feels like a fight . I thought you said it was easy , listening t your heart . I thought you sayy i'd be okayy , so why am i breaking apart ? Why is all this so confusing , complicating ? Why does all this make me angry ? I wanna go back and being happy . " :'(

Lets see , i'm hated . How awesome . I cant stand this anymore , really cant . Yeaah , i'm a faker . I hug you , i leave you . I said "I love you" , i leave you . I kissed you , i leave you . Break your heart again&again&again . Give you hopes again&again&again but broke your heart in th end . Fight for your justice ? Fight for your rights ? Ah , fight arh kau . I dont even know whaat we're fighting for -.- Dont ever trust me . Cos' i dont keep my words . Cos' i'm a liar . Cos' i'm a faker . Whaaat else ? Yarh , go on&hate me for all you want . Bear grudges on me , curse me saying tt i'll be a widow . Go on&blame me for everything . You should be happy huh . Dint expect tt it'll end up like this . Foooh . I really should stop thinking abt this . I nearly fall down th staircase thinking abt it . Wtf -.- &this will be th f.last time i'm crying abt all these things .

I didnt lied , i didnt . You chose not t believe me .

: "Cause its over , i swear girl its over this time"
: "Yes , i know its over&this time is for real"

I dont wanna stay in singapore .
I wanna migrate t australia :'(

2009-12-16T22:37:00.000+08:00

I fcuking hate my sister . Fcuker . aaa .

causeuragayy

2009-12-16T19:48:00.000+08:00

\m/
I wanna have my sweet revenge .
I want your life .
I want your everything .

I'm bored , did some math homeworks todaayee . Awesomee .
Iraaaa texted me . Awesomee .
Syukkk miss me . Awesomee .
You're a gayy . Awesomee .
I'm fat . Awesomee .
I'm sad . Awesomee .
I am fuming mad . Awesomee .
My cat's gorgeous . Awesomee .
My cat's fat . Awesomee .
fcuker .

:(

2009-12-16T13:16:00.000+08:00

I wanna go out .
I wanna screamm .
I wanna suck blood .
I wanna fight .
I wanna slap people face .
I wanna vent my anger .
I wanna kill people .
I wanna be a murderer .
I wanna laugh .
I dont wanna cry .

Make me laugh .
Make me happy .

I was reading thru my inbox&saw this message from Mr.freakingguyy : "You wear underwear or bra"
HAHAHAHA . I tried t make myself laugh . I feel so pathetic . Shut up , gay .
I havent bath . Bye .

Therapist // The Rapist - F taught me Wink

2009-12-16T01:16:00.002+08:00

Nyahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahhaha , Farhanaaaaaa . Farhaniiiiiii . Farhananananananana . Farhanehhhhhhhh . Oteyy , i think farhanehhh is better . HAH . Oteyyy , went gym w farhanehhhh :D:D I was 10 minutes late . Ahah . I've forgotten t bring my mp3 . Forgotten t eat chewing gum . Forgotten t bring my small pink bottle . Wtf . Did replacement for my lost ez-link card first before heading t th gym . Wtfwtfwtf , there's not a single goegeous guyy theree . Bleahs . I lose some fats ! :D HAH . Awesomeeee . Prolly , gg gym regularly now . Eheh . Aft tt , head t cp&studyyyyy . Saw aidil at MacD , he works there . &i cant stop laughing abt it , hahahhahahah . Funnehhhh . Was supposed t studyyy at starbucks but end up studying at MacD . She help me w my homeworks . She did it for me , actually . Hahahahhahaha . Awesomeeee . &we took a vid of us . Its too atrocious . HAH . Prolly thursday she'll be coming t my house&sha too t studyyy . Awesomeeee . Mum's oteyy w it , cos' she's a E1 kid . Hahahhha . &i totally forgot tt i've a clarinet outing this fridayy which i'm supposed t bring 10 pieces of chicken curry -.- But mum's busy this fri cos' of th N'level results . Wtf . &ohh yarh !

I miss IRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA&SYUKKKKKKKKYYYYYYYYYYYYY (You guys better be honoured . HAH )

&i hope everything's gonna be alright between sha and blablabla (: Hahaha .

Stop and stare ; .aaa

2009-12-13T21:43:00.001+08:00

Me too !

*Roll eyes*

.aaa

2009-12-13T17:43:00.006+08:00

I guess i'll be gg johor tomorrow , accompanying mum t collect her spectacles&i could meet that gorgeous guyy . Hahahahha . &so i've t postpone my gym appointment w cliques t tuesdayy . &will spend some time shopping for school stuffs&clothes . Guhreat . School's starting soon , definitely not prepared . Tons of homeworks not done . I doubt they'll even collect them -.- I cant wait for next year . It'll be streaming year = no more slacking . I need t spend my time wisely . I need t be serious . I need t work hard . I need t refrain from using laptop&stalking people's blog . I need t refrain from talking otp for hours . &i have t stop procrastinating . I dint say : "I have t refrain from messaging cliques th whole day" , cos' nobody have been texting me these few days *roll eyes* . But still , i asked mum for monehh t buy my prepaid ( sha , you still have t buy for me :D ) HAH . It feel good having monehh in my hands . Nyahahah . I guess thats all . Oteyy . Adios .

Kuala Lumpur ;

2009-12-12T20:38:00.024+08:00

Exhausted

Blisters ):

Exhausted

Blisters ):

Exhausted

Blisters ):

Help ):

2009-12-11T20:08:00.002+08:00

I need Huda right now ;'(

I've known it from th start .
You could have told me . U're just ruining this friendship of ours that we have build fer 12 months .
I can't believe u did that to me . I tot u are my bestf .
I can't forgive you .

2009-12-09T16:35:00.000+08:00

I wanna buy that pink camera .
I wanna go gym .
I wanna go etp .

Bye handsome .
Bye awesome .
Bye gorgeous .
Bye fabulous .
Bye prettaye .
Bye sexaye .

I gotta be strong ;

2009-12-09T00:36:00.002+08:00

Ignore whaat he says . Forget whaat he says . Don't cry . Its not worth crying abt it . Get over it . Keep holding on&everythings's gonna be alright . Don't worry .aaa , everythings's gonna be alright . Just keep saying that . Farhana , thank you [: Loveeee you [:

Wednesday night ;

2009-12-08T18:04:00.006+08:00

See how they position their hand when they sleep . Like father like son . HAH .

Where's sha ? I thought its alr 3 days ? Ohh boohoo . Ohh yeahh , i'll be taking flight tmr t Kl . Aint awesome cause i've never taken one before&not excited abt it , besides it only takes 1 hour t arrived . Cool or whaat ? I havent even packed my stuffs yet , geee . &i'll be back on monday ? A little bit too long , isnt it . Guhreat , will took this opportunity t cool down . Garhh , eyebags . Been watching movies late at night . Bedtime stories&Th notebook . You should watch Th notebook . Hahahahhahaha . Th movie was *thumbs up* You'll love it , trust me :D Hahahahahaha . Couldnt find Th last song&Alvin and the Chipmunks 2 tho . Boooo . &i seriously need t head t th gym next week . Hah . Prolly w shaa .

Oteyy , i'm off . Dont miss me (:

I've straightened out my thoughts ;

2009-12-07T21:12:00.000+08:00

I hate you , i really hate you ( I am not referring t anyone , really ) Everything's gone wrong . I wanna end this ________ . I f.cant take it anymore . I f.hate too much people&that is why i f.hate my life . I f.wanna kill every single one of you . Okay fine-h . Sorry , i think its just me . I guess . Oteyyy , i'm gonna lead my gorgeous life back , starting from this second onwards . I have got no other word t describe . Hahahahah . I love every single one of you :D Hahahahah . I have t stop hating people . I have t stop being stubborn . I have t stop being over-jealous . I have t stop overreacting over th slightest thing . I have t stop crying over th slightest thing . I have t stop stalking people , which is kinda impossible . Heh . I have got t regain my confidence backk &be that strong , not independant short little cute girl :D Okaaye fine-h , a little exagerated . Heh . Oteyy , i love you . Adios .

But i still need someone t talk t .

No one ;

2009-12-07T19:45:00.000+08:00

I was laughing for no reason and th next second i was crying for no reason . Hahahahahahahahha .

You took everything from me ;

2009-12-07T13:58:00.000+08:00

Guess , i'll be gg KL on wednesday ? I thinkk . At least i get t runaway from this country , from those people , from everything , here . I've been feeling vv.down lately&i've got t stop this . But just when i thought i could forget them , it just came across my mind all of a sudden . I just wanna laugh , at least . I dont want t care . But my heart's saying th other way round Wtf.Wtf.Wtf . There's nothing i could do .

I need someone t talk t ;

I brought this upon myself ;

2009-12-06T18:55:00.002+08:00

I'm sad . F.sad

I'm dumbfounded .
I cant accept "that" fact .
I wanna screeam .
I wanna cry .
I wanna runaway from here .
I dont believe it , really .
I guess its karma .

Dreww Royy ;

2009-12-06T16:55:00.000+08:00

<333

Hehehehehehehehehehe . I cant stop smiling t myself looking at his gorgeous photos . Ohh fcukk , i love him . &dont you try falling in love w him at any point of time , cause i swear i'm gonna haunt you down . Hahahhaha . No , but seriously . I mean it . *insertseriousface* Oteeyyy , i'm off .

Day out w , loves ;

2009-12-05T21:17:00.001+08:00

Alohaaa . Went swimming yest w sha&syau . Meet up w sha first . HAH . Had fun at her house :D &we tried t cooked instant fried rice&i doubt you would want t try it . Hahahaha . &It only stop raining at ard 2 ? Yeaah . Had our late lunch at Mac . &head back home aft that . Ohh yarh . Sha went off t Kuala Lumpur todayye . I'll be gg overseas some day later too . Oteyyy nexxxxt , my plan todayye was t actually do some homeworks but i end up watching High School Musical 1 , 2 , 3 on teevee . Hahahaha . My boyfriend's on teevee , how could i not watch it (Zac Efron) Hahahaha .

I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee him :DDD

&i love him , cause he's a vampire&i love vampire .

&i loveeeeeeeeeee himmm :D

If your heart's not in it ;

I'm missing you

Girl even though you're right here by my side

Cause lately it seems

The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over

The last thing that I wanna hear

But if your heart's not in it for real

Please don't try to fake what you don't feel

If love's already gone

It's not fair to lead me on

Cause I would give the whole world for you

Anything you ask of me I'd do

But I won't ask you to stay

I'd rather walk away

If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me

But baby sometimes

You're just saying the words

If you've got somethin' to tell me

Don't keep it inside

Let it be heard

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over

Girl I'll make it easy for you

But if your heart's not in it for real

Please don't try to fake what you don't feel

If love's already gone

It's not fair to lead me on

Cause I would give the whole world for you

Anything you ask of me I'd do

But I won't ask you to stay

I'd rather walk away

If your heart's not in it

How I wish I could take us back in time

But it's gone too far now we can't rewind (And there's nothing that I can do

To stop me losin' you)

I can't make you change your mind (If your heart's not in it)

But if your heart's not in it for real

Please don't try to fake what you don't feel

If love's already gone

It's not fair to lead me on

Cause I would give the whole world for you

Anything you ask of me I'd do

But I won't ask you to stay

I'd rather walk away

If your heart's not in it .

.....

I was listening t this song yest&it kinda reminds me of him . Heh . I mean this song its like dedicated t me from him . I mean imagination . Look at th lyrics . Duhhhhh . Ohh whatev . I'm off .

Pictures ;

2009-12-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

Kidsss ..

Even th mother is playing . Hahahahha .

Isnt he adorableeeeeeeeeeeee .

Happy kan takder gambar aku . Hahahahah . Bye .

Day out w aunt&cousins ;

2009-12-03T20:51:00.001+08:00

Boo ! Yest , went out t yishun t catch a movie . Heh . I've been watching movie lately , seriously . Hah . Guess whaaat moviee was it . Hah . Astroboyyy :D Those cute creatures cousins of us wanted t watch , so be it . I'm okaayy w it as long as i get t eat popcorns . Hahahaha . Thought that th movie will be kinda boring but it turned out t be incredibly awesome . Okaayy not that incredibly , maybe . Hah . Aft movie , head t arcade . Geee , cute creatures turned into monsters . Hahahah . All of them were having so much fun . Well , i had fun watching them played , maybe . Hah . Err , i wanna watch Th Vampire Assistant , Zombieland , Case 39 , Alvin&th Chipmunks 2 , Princess&th Frog . Hahahahaha . Whaaaat , th trailer seems interesting . Heeeh . Vampire Assistant&Zombieland watched . Next up Case 39 . Muahahaha . Oteyyy fineh .

And looks like there's a thief in this house . Grandma monehh was stolen/lost . Judging by her character , obviously she'll do something . Duhh . She told th exact same story from A-Z , 3 times t me . I repeat three times . &i didnt expect that she'll quarrel w my maid -.- She suspect my maid , duhh . I was watching a movie then and boomz , chaos . Unfortunately , i was th only one at home besides them . Wtf . Had t stop them from quarrelling . &i did nothing , actually . At least i listen t grandma story again and again and again . &now they're sitting tgt , talking t each other ? Wtfff ? Whatev , Oteeyyy nexxxxt .
This is gg t be something different , i guess . Heh .

Err , i was looking thru my inbox yest&reading all th messages one by one . Yeah , burn th midnight oil just t read those messages . Birthday wish messages , kind of fighting messages . Hah . Dont intend t delete it , dont ask whyy . Geee . I miss Mr.A ): I miss th way he console me . Hahahah . I miss Mr.S ): I miss calling his name . Hahahaha . Mr.A . He's a guhreat guyy . He knows how t take good care of a girl feelings . Okaaay , not that much . Hahaha . But still , he did try his best t do so . But just one small fight , and boomz . Everything changed . Mr.S . A stranger . A close friend . A v.close friend . &in th end , its back t square one = stranger . Just because of one small fight , and boomz . Everything changed . Just when i thought everything was going th way i wanted it t be it turned out t be th other way round . Its always like this , always . Why cant i have everything in this world ? Why th hell must we choose ? Why cant we just have everything ? _____ become strangers . ______ become enemies . Why , Why , Why . Its so unfair . Well , life's always unfair isnt it ? Good things dont last forever . Why .

Its all wrong from th start . Blame me for everything . Yes , i'm being selfish . But , i've been pretending right from th start . Didnt you noticed ? Like seriously . I'm trying t make all of you guys happy , but . But i'm not . Yes , there were times where i enjoyed being w you . You're pressuring me , seriously . I cant do this anymore . I dont wanna hurt you but i think i just did . I think you're gonna hate me now . I doubt we could still be HBB now . &stop blaming sha for everything , will ya . Excuse me , she's my best budd . As you can see , history is repeating itself . &excuse me , i didnt changed . At all . I've been hiding this feeling . I'm tired . I'm exhausted . I'm having a nervous breakdown soon . On second thought , i think it was my fault . Four times . Four times . Four times . Four times . That hurts alot . Damnnnnnnnn .

I still have alot t say , i'll post th pics , next time .

Imma heartbreaker
Imma heartbreaker
You're a heartbreaker
You're a heartbreaker .

Ohh yarhh . I havent bath . Hahahahhahahahahahah .

roll eyes

2009-12-02T13:16:00.000+08:00

Diam arh kau . Ah kau . Bye .

2009-12-01T21:18:00.001+08:00

I was forced to post .
I'd like to say I miss HUDA :D

Trip ;

2009-12-01T00:10:00.004+08:00

I cant use th laptop tmr , so i have t update todayyyee .

Err , supposed t leave th house at 7 but sis and i woke up late&in th end left at 12 ? Yarh , i guess . Reached th immigration and boomz . Th queue was f.long , really really f.long . Had t wait for long hours . Hah , okayy kidding . Ard 30-40 mins ? Nth much happened during th first day . Okayyy , nexxxxxxxxt . Next day was merely hair cut dayyy . Heh , Okaayyyyy nexxxxxxxxxt . Had breakfast&grandma tea is superb :D I loikeeeee . Ohh andand this is th conversation when i went t put my plate inside th basin which grandma was sitting infront of it -.- Hahahaha .

Grandma : Dah makan ?

Me : Dah -.- (She didnt saw that face tho)

Grandma : Dah mandi ?

Me : Belom . Hahah .

Grandma : Ohh , nanti pakai seluar panjang sket yerr ( i was wearing fbt at that point of time )

Me : Huh ? Ohh kayy -.-

I was , errrrr -.- Totally no comments -.-

Bleahs , okaaaaayee . So , went out t catch a movie . " A Christmas Carol " . Boringggggg -.- &for allah sake , its supposed t be a scary movie -.- &seriously maaan , whats up w malaysian mats wearing shades in th mall ? -.- F.disgusted . Peee-ewww . Whatev , aft movie . Shopped around . Went inside this spectacle shop cos' mum wanted t make one . &this chinese guy who served us was f.cuteeeeeeeee . Hell yeaahh . Seriously , he's cute . *insertseriousface* I'm totally serious . Huahuahua . &whenever i say 'ichiban' to my mum which means good , he'll go like "HUH ?" Hahahahahahah , i seriously laugh out loud when he said that . He said that twice ! &i have no idea whats w his reaction -.- Well who cares , he's cute ! &&he's more cute when he speaks in malaayyyy . Nyahahah . He looks cute when he smiles . Heeeeeeeeeeee . Okayyy fineh . I saw this pink black specs and i pleaded w my mum t buy it for me . But she dint allow ): Cause its 200 bucks . Boooooo . Anyhoos , i wanted it cause its pink in colour . Hahahah . Ohh yarh , talking about pink . Syuk shared a pink camera w her cousin , i think . &so unfair . Pffffffffffffft . I want a pink cameraaaaaa ): I'm gonna buy one soon , sooner or later . Heh . Hmfth . Loads of pictures . But its mostly me . Hahahahahahahahahah . Oteeeeeeeeeyyyy . Ohh waittt ! Yknow whaaaat . My dad says : Having a husband as a womanizer is alright -.-

She's adorable isnt she ? Heh , i was th one who wrapped her w tt kain . Hahahah . But she can be really tating at times , serious . Hahaha .

I didnt realise that th wall of my house is pink in colour . Hahahahaha .

She loves my sis -.-

Garh i miss shaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa . She didnt msg me , hmfth . Anyhoos ,

I miss

Syukriyaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh&I

loveeeeeeeeeee herrrr .

Heeheehee (she wants it in green) Hah .

M'sia ;

2009-11-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

I'm off t M'sia . Will be back on Mondayyyy . Huahua . Miss me people .

To Ira : I'll be checking my name in every post you wrote , from 271109 till 301109 . HAHAHA . You'll be rape if you disobey my order . Hahahaah . Kay , sayaang kau . Bye . <3

Iraaaaaaaaaaaaaa ;

2009-11-26T18:53:00.000+08:00

Ira Aryani wants t be a model {!}

(i was forced t say this :P)

Nasraaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ;

2009-11-26T17:44:00.006+08:00

Nasraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah !

(she should be honoured that i wrote her name v.large&excuse me its pink in colour)

Penaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat , babi . Hahahahahahha . I just have th urge t scold someone now . &Ira , makeleleling , nasraaah should know who . Ohh yarh , sha&syuk too . Hmfth . Mother fxcker . I really wanna kill you , stab your heart , suckk your f.blood , cut your body into pieces , paint it w pink colour paint , roast your f.body , boil your f.body and feed your f.body t th wild dogs . FCUK YOUUUUUUU ! Ameekkk kau ! *roll eyes* Can you like at least know your limits ? Seriously -.- If only i could give you a tight slap and squeeze your boobs andand let some banglas rape you a billion times . Bessssssst tuhhhhhh . Muahahahahahah . This is whaaaaat you get when you (insertwordhere) ME . Kay , fcuk you . Bye .

Yest went out w wifeyy&todayye went out w nasraaah . Went yck backk cause PSLE results was released todayeee . Err yeaah , i dont even know whts th purpose of gg thr . I just want t get out from this house . Heh .&i didnt told mum abt this . Huahuahuahua . I'll upload lateerrr . Went void deck w her , chaat&stuffs . Saw zakaria , hasrie , gautam and friends . Geeeeee , but asyraf was nowhere t be found ): Hahahahahah . Ohh yarrhh ! I mistake one of them as mahadhirr . HAHAHAH . I shouted mahadhir name and tt person didnt respond . When i walked ard his area , it was someone else . Hhahahahahaahah ! Paisehyy siol -.- Hahahah .

I had fun w Nasraahhhhhhhhhh todaaayyyee eventho she called me selenge bacin (: Hahahahhaha . At least , she makes me laugh (: I love youuu maaaaaaaaaaaan ! :D &&i met her dad when we're eating at MacD . Hahaha . Seeing them communicate is v.funneh . HAHAHA ! I can feel th lovee . HAHAHA , kayyy tu dah merepek . Hahahaha . Talking abt dad . My dad tercampak pat indonesia -.- Idk why he sudd went thr , geee . I think he'll be back soon :D

&yknow whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat . My junior said : "Idk whyy , but this year alot of ppl want t choose pei hwa . " F.man -.-

Wifeyy is going off todayye . I loveee youu . Takee caree of yourself . I'll miss you *cry* I knoww you'll miss me too :P Hahahaha . She'll be back on sunday , i guess . I'll be back on mondayy (: Sayaaaaaaaaang kaauu !

Okaayy Okaaay , waittt ! Makeleleing told me tt she's a daily reader of my blog ! How sweeeeeeeeeet is that ! HAHAHA . So i have t say this t her . I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU , SWEEETHEAART !

&&Ohh yarhhhh ! I love Edward Cullen but not Robert somethingsomething . Idk his real name . HAHAHA . But anyhoos , do you guys get th diff ?! Kayy byee . Hahahahha .

I need t grow tall , i need t grow tall !

Boredddddddddddddddd ;

2009-11-24T19:14:00.000+08:00

F.youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu . I'm f.boreddddddddddddddddddddddd . Can someone ke entertain me puhleaseeeeeeeee . Call me . Webcam w me . Ask me out (i dont even know if i can , heeeeh) Come drop by my house . Hahahahah . I'm seriously f.bored . Seriously . Seriously . I wanna laughhhh . Ha.ha.ha . I feel like sucking peoples blood . Sounds delicious . Ohh yarh , i miss my malay dance cliques not t mention dancing , duhhh . I'm f.jealous seeing other peeps wearing that gorgeous costume , that gorgeous accessories , gorgeous make ups ):

Make me laugh and i'll kiss you .
Hahahahaahah ):

Contract ;

2009-11-24T14:16:00.001+08:00

Pssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssst !

I miss those times (:

I miss makeleleling (:

I pity mahadhir , cause his fake name is drag into this contract (its pink in colour !) .

Hahahah .

I love makeleleling <3333333333333

Shasha ;

2009-11-23T20:00:00.001+08:00

Was webcaming w shasha from just now and still . Hahahha . &there was one moment her dad masok campur . Hah , hilarious . At least i'm not that bored . Huahua . Kay byeee .

Missing ;

2009-11-23T17:58:00.001+08:00

Boo !

I suddenly miss these two bunch of monkeys , hahahha . Of all monkeys , okayy fineh . Cute monkeys which never fails t make me laugh like a pig , snore/snort i meant , every single time . Hah , okay fineh , at least (:

Its coming t an end soon , my instict tells me so . It seems like i was right aft all , nothing last forever . Gawd , i f.hate sweet talkers . I just wouldnt learn my lesson . F.you . Huahua . I doubt nobody could help me now . I just wanna laugh . Laugh&laugh&laugh . Make me laugh , anybody ? Gagag . Whatev shit .

I have a sudden interest in vampires . Hahahahah .

&i officially declare that i love vampires , cause they suck blood .

Fooh , i loikeeee . Hhahahaah .

Kay bye . Okaay wait . I'm going overseas in few days times , that goes th same for wifeyy . Take care aytes . Pink loves you . Adios .

This feeling ;

2009-11-22T20:34:00.000+08:00

I dont know what th hell is wrong w me . I feel so sad , i cant find an answer for that . I just know i'm really really really f.sad . Fffff.sad . Whats wrong w me ? Garh , something's just not right . Something is not th same . Something seems t be missing . Something is different from before . I just have th urge t runaway from this house . I wanna runaway . I want .. I feel so vex that i could become deranged any moment of time . I cant decipher my feelings . Isnt that what people always says ? Hah . I dont understand why i'm feeling this way . I dont understand why im suddenly in this situation . In this pathetic state . I feel so lost . I dont know what i want . I dont even know what i'm living for . I dont f.understand why i'm typing all this bullshit . I dont understand . I f.dont understand . I think i need a psychiatrist . Can i drop dead ? Okaayy , maybe not . I still wanna marry my mat sallehs at australia . But i feel like dying now , hah . I'm f.exhausted . I cant hold on any longer . I feel like running around th whole world w a pink knife on my hand killing all human beings except for my hawt eurasian guys . Okayy fineh , impossible . I feel like hating . I feel like blaming everyone for my current state . Fcuk , that totally doesnt sounds like me . I dont know what had become of me . I feel like i was deserted once again . Can i cry ? *Cry* I hate this . I dont like this feeling . I'm afraid . I'm petrified . *Showsadsadsadsadface* D:

Garh ! Just get this inside your head , I'm f.sad . F.you .
I'm watching th wizards of waverly place th movie for th second time . Heeheeheh .

.aaa

Class gathering ;

2009-11-21T22:43:00.003+08:00

I'm f.exhausted , just came back from class gathering . It rained halfway . Grr . Whats w th weather nowadays . Sheesh . Loads of photo was taken . Cause i kept bugging them t take photo w me . Hahahha , yknow me . Heheh . Huahua . Not many people went for th outing . Booo . Th foood was average . Hah . Was fun afterall but i certainly dont like th part where , err , yknow those stuffs . Heh . Creeps me out . Heh . Kay , pictures time . Nyahah .

Nuuuuuuuuuuuuril !

Hahahaah . I just have th urge t do this pose . HAHAHA .

Damn , gorgeous siol nih . Hahahhahahahahhahahaahahah !

My nose is big . Hahahhahaha . xD

Yaziddddddddd !

Aiqeeeeeeeel !

He's like some kampung maan . HAHA .

They were playing this game called fluffy bunny , i guess . Hah . They're supposed t put marshmallow inside their mouth and say th number . Hah , okaay i dont nderstand what i'm saying . HAH . Like four fluffy bunny . Okayy fineh , whatev . Hahaha .

Mr.Chng look so cute siaa . Hahah !

Hahahahahah !

It was so f.hot & thats nigel teeth . Hah !

Shashahidah . Heeeeeeh .

Th mirror was so small . Pffft .

:D:D:D:D

Lishaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan !

Sha's helping Miss chua translate th malay words for th ncdcc , i guess .

Hah .

Eliseeeeeeeeee !

Cherinnneeeeeeeeee !

Yknow what ! We rode/ride , whatev . Heh ,

a bicycle&i could support sha but she couldnt support me !

Tsskkkkk ! I'm not that heavy , grrr . Okay fineh , a little .

Hahahhahaah .

Sabrinaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !

He's always w that shirt , seriously . Hahahah . But still he's v.handsome .

HAHAHA !

Fook man , i took more than an hour t upload these pictures .

Garrrrrrrrrrrhhh .

Yes , i'm back !

2009-11-21T01:04:00.002+08:00

*SCREEEAAAMMSS !*

*SCREEAMS !*

*SCREEEAAAAMSSS !*

Garrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ! I cant believe i'm finally back from camp ! *Big Smile !* Th band camp was BOOMZ . Hahahhah . This post gonna be long . Heeeh .

First day :

Dad send me t school . My bag was f.heavy and somemore i need t carry th sleeping bag w my hand . Gee . Reported at band room and put away out stuffs in th respective classroom . We , i mean me and syau arrived slightly late . Heeh . Come on , i'm never punctual . Heh . Then we had our training . Followed by shower time . And yknow what ? We only had 8 mins t shower . I repeat 8 ! Gawdd , can you believe it 8 mins t shower ? Pfffft . We had our games . And i didnt expect that it would be so fun , seriously . And yknow what i learn/learnt (whats th difference ? HAH) that i needa brush my teeth before gg t sleep . Sucha hassle . Slept on th table . Sheesh . And idk how t open th sleeping bag . Hahahaha . Okaayy , whatev . Next dayy .

Second day :
Was supposed t assemble at 7.30 , woke up ard 6 . Took a bath and yknow what ? (You dont know) I'm th only one in th section who took a bath and th rest just brushed their teeth/washed face .Geeee . I mean i'm not disgusted , okayy fineh a little . Come on , its not as if i never done tt before . Heehee . *Big Smile* &so had our PT , idk what it stands for . But we did check bang thingy . Garh , i thought only th uniform group have that kind of stuffs . And i definitely look hideous doing tht , seriously . You wouldnt want t see me doing tht , but still have tt cute face of mine arh . Hahahahahahaha . Okay fineh . Had breakfast , gawd . A bread only ? Next was training . Had lunch , we were group together . Err , we played games : Dodge ball and Amzing trail . Played dodge ball halfway and it rained . Sheesh . For th Amazing trail we had t blindfold ourself , we had t trust our peers . Shower time , dinnner and had our training . Yes , we had training during night . HAH . &that is why lips is so sexayee now , red in colour . Hahahaah . Dont forget th lyrics was next . Hah . It was kinda fun , cause we sang . Hahahaha . Okaayyye , next day . Ohh wait wait ! Hahah , i love t touch this guy : Edmunnnnd hair leg . HAHAHAHA ! Its so funneh , and atiqah was like laughing her hearts out . Wait isnt that for crying ? Hahahahhahahah ! Okayy fineh . Whtev , kept disturbing him and he calls me little girl . Hah !

Third day :
PT was cancelled , cause we slept late yesterday . But it makes no diff , still had t wake up early . Sheesh . Cause of th games . Hahhahah . Err , th games of plates . Damn , i love it ! Its like , there's 50 numbers and th plate was placed on th floor . There's drawing an stuffswriiten/drawn on it and we had t guess what number it is and hit them . I was so enthu . Hahahahaha . We played many rounds alr . I was th hitter this time round and i seriously went bonkers . Hahahahah ! I was screaming like one dufus , retard . Hahahah ! Th facilitators was like laughing like hell seeing me hitting those plates . Hahahaha ! I love them maaan . Heh *Big Smile* We won second in place . Huahua ! Then th routine stuffs . And we had our Ensemble competition . This day which i'll never forget . Many tears was shed . Th purpose of this competition is t improve th sectional standard . And clarinets have been winning for th past three years , if i'm not wrong . And we screw up , we really did . When th competition was over . We had t wait for th result . And i cried , yes i did . Some of them had already started crying . And we won . We won th first position . But i honestly think we dont deserve this place , seriously . Isabell was right , w/o th past batches i doubt we could get this position . We know we screwed up and we cried like one (insertwordhere) I mean , garhh . Forget it . Then we were gathered tgt , Mr Tang gave us a speech , yknow it'll be always those consoling words , whatev it is . My eyes were f.red . Fooh . And Edmunnd was like dont cry little girl . Hahahah . How cutee . This is th day which convince me that i love bannd (:

Fourth day :
Last day of camp . Breakfast at Jalan Kayu . Foooh . And during sectional was asked t voice out th things we arent unhappy about . And yeah we cried , again . Wan ling was seriously crying her hearts out . Was kinda okaay aft awhile cause those 3 seniors of mine : Huimin , Tammy , Isabell . We played squeeze squeeze . Ha.Ha.Ha ( inside joke ) Hhaahahhaah . I lovee them ! *SCREEAMS !* Then we had debrief . Give out prizes for th Ensemble and th winner groups . Hah . Group four won which was my group . Yes arhh . Hahahah . && we had Th best camper . *BigBiBigSmile* &yknow what ? *SCREEAAMS !* I was th best camper . Hhahhahahahaha . Nyahhah . Can you belive it ?! Okayy you cant . Garrrh . My face was so stoopid , serious serious . Aint kidding . Hahahah . I seriously didnt expect that it'll be me . Huahuahua ! Ehehh . And off back home .

I had tons of fun during band camp , seriously . Laughter , tears and stuffs . I love th seniors .
I love band *BigBigBigBigSmile !*

And copymeow not that copymeow th other copymeoww w pig nose . Hah . Serious man , arent you disgusted by yourself ? I'm like seriously wasting my f.time w PM's talking w you . Garh , and stop being naive . You're gullible t believe tt your friends truly friend you . Hah , i'm talking bullshits here . Hah .

And th other meoww , for allah's sake that post wasnt for you . -.- Yang kau nak terase nih asal ? Puhlease luhh eyy . Illogical . ( is there such word ? Hahahhah ) So you've wasted your f.time typing that post for me (: When i started snoring then you started , why didnt you do it before i did that . Dont you feel irritated ? I know you wrote that few days back . But i really couldnt stand it . You could have told me straight t my face and save you from being a hypocrite . W/o th other guys i'm stuck w you . I dont really get what you're saying . Rephrase sket . Garh . Err starting of th year , we arent that close thats i why i wrote those stuffs . But now , err whatev . Hah .

&yknow what ?! I didnt know that sis from aussie will be coming back todayyye ! Hah ! :D

Grrrrrrr ;

2009-11-16T19:36:00.001+08:00

I look so evil . Momokkkkk . Hah .

Say goodbye t Nurulhuda Bte Suaini . *SCREEAMSS!*

I am f.fuming mad . Grrrrrrrr . Idk why . I'm just mad at every single f.human in this f.world .

My bag is fatter than me . Hahahahahah . And ira's backkkk ! Yay ! Dad's gonna send me&gawd my bag's f.heavy . Grrrrr . &i have t carry tt clarinet&sleeping bag w my hand . Gawd , i look hideous . Sheesh ! &i doubt i could sleep , first day . Geeee . &i'm supposed t call someone now , hah . Okay i'm off ! Err , i wanna say tt f.copymeow is seriously getting on my nerve . Oink ! Kay bye <3

*SCREAAMS!*

Forgive me ):

2009-11-14T21:33:00.009+08:00

Elder sis coming back real soon . *InsertBigSmile!* Nyahaha . Ohh how i miss her . Boooo . &see that adorable kid up there ? *look up* Damn he's so f.tating . Tho he's v.adorable , he can be th most tating , annoying kid ever . Garh . Cause he just irritate me . Mimicked my actions&stuffs . &that is why i hate kids . Geeee . &start missing me people . Two more days&i'm off t camp . &i think ira's enjoying/suffering at camp right now . I havent even bought my stuffs for camp , prolly tomorrow . Just wait for my returned t make this blog alive back (Nyahah) or wait for sha t update th blog . *Wink.wink* &i'm missing alot of people . Booo . Ohh yarh , i'm prolly going Hong Kong too -.- Pfffffffffftt . Elder sis suggestion . Garhh . Dont you think time is flying too fast . Boomz , it will be 2010 soon , real soon . Boomz , i'll be sec 2 soon , real soon . Streaming year , geee . Boomz , someone graduating soon , real soon . Boomz.Boomz.Boomz. Why cant i be 20 now ?! Bleaahhhs . Sec 1 life had been a roller coaster ride . Boomz , its over now . &i prolly think th next batch of sec 1 will be boomz . Hahahha . Idk whats w me and boomz . Heh . Obviously they will be taller than me . Hmfth . Pfft . No doubt on that . Nyeeeeeet . [ Internet is tating me ! ]

*Read this paragraph w serious/angry/sarcasm tone*

I nearly forgot . I have t talk abt this particular person . Yes you , i'm talking about you , yes you(: Nyahahh . Errr , i am extremely disgusted by you , your actions , your appearance , everything that is related t you . &stop asking my friend whether i've been talking about you behind your back . For allah sake , you're sec 1 , age 13 , Miss . &stop asking who i like/love . &dont bother wasting your f.time figuring out who that person is . Sheeesh ! You idolise me or something ?! That you have t know every single thing about me , about my f.life . Ohh what a copymeow . Just admit it , yknow you are . -.- What a bitch . Ohh how i hate you . Yes , i hate you , dearest (:

W luv ;

Mr.Nyahahh is graduating real soon . Booo . I wonder how long we'll last . I mean in this situation or bleahs . Heh . Honestly , i really dont believe that we'll still be contacting each other aft he graduate . Distance matters , t me i guess . I mean i know you guys will say like err : Nothing can break us up as long as our hearts are aperh bende luhh . Hahhahah . Buuuuuuuuuut . He says he's gonna break my belief . Nyahahhahah . &he says must be serious w this kind of stuffs&he need my cooperation . Nyahahhah . Isnt he so cute . Hah ! Everything's going perfectly fineh . Heh . He lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove me .

I lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove him . You realised there's one less "love" for "I love him" ? Okay fineh , i know you guys dont bother t count . Hahahah . Anyhoos , he need t love me more , miss me more etcetc . Heh . Err , he's always there for me . He always try his best t cheer me up when im down . He's a great guyy . He's a guhreat boyfriend if he become one . He loves t rape . Loveeeeeeeeeeeee Mr.Nyahhah (:

I cant help but t laugh , hehehhehehhehehe :

" Th mark of a true crush ... is that you fall in love first and grope for reasons afterward "

*First part*

Mr.A send kinda long message t me thru my friend . Heh , prolly because he couldnt stand my attitude towards Mr.A2&Mr.S . He somesort said he couldnt stand seeing Mr.A2 being sad any longer . Mr.A said it was Mr.S who spread th thingy and not Mr.A2 . Mr.A said Mr.S ( i was angry at him at that point of time , abt he spreading th thingy ) still likes me and that Mr.A2 pity Mr.S and took th blame for him . Before Mr.A send this message t me . Mr.A2 text me saying he was th one who spread th thingy&so i was mad at him , really mad cause he promised me not t tell . Some day later , Mr.A couldnt stand seeing Mr.A2 sad and took th blame for him and so Mr.A text me saying that it was his fault and not Mr.A2 fault . &so i was mad at Mr.A . And todayy Mr.A text me saying that he really couldnt stand all this f.shits anymore . And Mr.A said he's going t tell th f.truth . He said he dont give a damn if i dont believe him . Mr.A said it wasnt he's and Mr.A2 fault . He said t me " Everybody knows that Mr.S was th one who spread th thingy" Mr.A told me that Mr.A2 took th blame for Mr.S and Mr.A took th blame for Mr.A2 . (Its like a food chain , hahah) Mr.A said "I know you hate me , i wont disturb your life any longer " &then i send this longlong message t him . &i waited for his reply . I waited for long hours and never did i expect him t say that ...

*Second part*

I pondered and pondered and pondered . Cause i dont really know why i'm still mad at them . I feel so wrongggg . I told him it was natural for me t react that way cause i'm a girl , duhh . By spreading th thingy is making me lose face , duhh . It wasnt completely their fault , cause part of it is mine . I should have expected that things would turn this way . I should have thought of th consequences . I should have thought ... My thick ego just wouldnt let me forgive them . I told Mr.A i should stop it before people starts hating me . I told him , i told him i was sorry butbutbut Mr.A said "I think your thick ego is right . I think we're not meant t be friends . &so this will be my last message to you , farewell" *CryOutLoud!* I never meant t start this fight . I dont even know what we're fighting for ! I really didnt know things would turn out this bad . I really didnt meant t . I could have vent my anger at you guys for two days (its not tt long , tsk) and forgive you guys . I could have thought of all th good times that you guys make me laugh like one retard . I apologised , i did . I really mean it . I mean you guys have th right t be mad at me cause i was kinda selfish , stubborn . But dont end this friendship . I mean there's not a need t do this ): You know , i dont wish t . Garrrhhhhhhhhhh ! I hate this ! I hate this ! I hatehatehatehatehate this ! Dear god , help .
I'm sorry Mr.A . I'm sorry Mr.A2 . I'm sorry Mr.S .

Love ;

2009-11-13T21:13:00.001+08:00

*Wink.wink .* Nyahah . Okayy .aaa is baccckkkkkk . Shout my name .
Hahahhaha . Okay fineh . Err , life had been sucha boomz . Hahaha .
Head t century square t catch a movie : 2012 w cliques .
Apparently , i was th only one who was late . Hehehehe .
I'm never punctual , heeh .
Was supposed t be at compass by 12 but i woke up at 11 .
I knew there was not enuff time but i'm just toooo tired t get off my bed .
Eheeh . Th movie starts at 2.15 , waited.waiting for th clock t strike 2.00 .
Bleaaah . I kept poking shahendra's waist , is it waist ?
I think it is . Heeeh . &he showed tt cramp face of his . Hahahhahaha .
Heeeh . Overall , th movie was kinda boring . Th sound effect was sungguh tak perlu .
It was fun afterall . Boooooo . Wont get t see Mr.Nyahhaha for (inserthowmanyweeksdays) . Booooooooooo !

Mr.Nyahahha loveeeees me !
Farhana loveeeeeeees me !
Shahidaaah loveees me !
Nyahahah .

I dont feel right .

2009-11-12T21:23:00.000+08:00

I'll update a proper post tomorrow , i guess . Kay bye .

.aaa

Burn th midnight oil ;

2009-11-09T02:57:00.002+08:00

I think i'm going bonkers . I'm burning th midnight oil just t watch this chinese drama show at youtube . I cried/laugh like one dufus watching th show . *laugh* Teehee . I guess i'm th only one awake here . Nyahah . I did nth much todayy except watching th show&messaged Mr.Nyahaha all day long . Heh . He's been sleeping early lately . Guess , he's really tired aft working for long hours . Heh . &th girl up there beside me *look up* says she miss and love me . Nyahah . I've not been contacting my wife , idk how she's doing now whther she's fighting w his boyfie or sis or she's having problems in whatever . Heh . I sound so thoughtful , okayy fineh not . Ohh yarh i post a picture of my cat cause i finally bath her aft how many weeks/month . Heh . &idk why i just cant forgive them . Or am i just venting my anger at them ? Or am i just being willful ? Whats wrong w me ?
Time check : 2.57A.M ;
I'm off , .aaa

Booooooooooooooo ;

2009-11-07T20:33:00.001+08:00

I think i am sad ; *insertsadface*

I really dont have th mood t blog . But , i'm still here t blog . Heeh . Err , Yesterday , night was ( insertwordhere ) Garhhhhhhh . I am so freaking fuming mad w those guys . *SCREAAMS!* Had a tiff / quarrelled w sweet talker , yesterday . He denies that he's a sweet talker . Pfft . &i feel so much better letting him know how i really felt in th past . I cursed him , i think i did . &he so doesnt understand me or understand my feelings . Grrrrr . Like seriously serious . He still dont get it . He still dont get th point -.- Pffffft . &i dreamt of him&this girl . &i was like ignoring th girl in th dream . Hah . Okayy , so He treated me as an enemy for no reason , im referring t you , yes you . He is so not understanding my situation , like wtf . Yes you , another you . And both of th other He broke their promises and lied . It seems confusing t understand . Cause i'm having difficulty understang it too . Nyaha . &i've been writing short post lately . Heeh , sorry aye . Just dont have anythang t blog . Heeh . I cant wait for th upcoming outings . Th movie outing and th class gathering , i think its prolly gg t be BBQ . Ohhwells . &&prolly will be gg malaysia on th 27th november . Miss me people , it will be like at least one week ? Booooooo . *Insertsadface*

.aaa

Nyhahahah <33333

2009-11-06T19:26:00.001+08:00

Just shut up and watch me walk ;

*BigBigBigBigSmile!* Went out on a study date w wifey . Nyaahha . My cat's fat , like me . Hahahahah . Cause yknow why ? Cause i've been feeding her crackers ( fish ) secretly . Hahhahaha . I seriously have nth t post except that i want t say i lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove Mr.Nyahahhahahahhahahhahahahahahahhahhhahahhahahhahahhahhahahhhahahhahahahahh .

Heeeeheeeeeeee .

Grrrrr ;

2009-11-05T21:49:00.003+08:00

Yesterday Pictures ;

Idk what are they doing . Tsk .

GuyysOhhBoys xD

*Snore*
(He's getting irritated , cause i kept bugging him t take photo w me xD)

I look fat ! Nyahahha .

Look at his face !

*LAUGH!*

Ignore my face&look at his face , he's so funneh

He can be real cute at times&not t mentioned damn tating -.-

Best picture of th day . I look so gorgeous .

*Wink.Wink*

It took me ages t post all these pictures . There's still loads more . Effing lazyy t upload . I was so fcuked up w internet . Pfft . I could get angry over th slightest thing .Garhhhhhh . Meooow . Nyahha . Nyahahhah ! &i've not been talking t my bloody sis for th past few days . You can say we communicated by passing post it card . *laugh* I dirtied her Puma bag , excuse me its Puma . Obviously she's angry , duhhh . I would prolly be angry too if she does tt , duhh . &Guyys are like showing their perangai nowadays . tsktsktsk . &this particular guyy , just cant shut th fcuk up . Like , seriously . Promised but break it -.- F.you . &i had a nightmare . I had never encounter one before , really . I get straight t th point . This evil ghost ate half of my hand . YesOhhYes , it may seems illogical , funneh . But , geee . I was flabbergasted . Till i tossed and turned and tossed and turned and tossed and turned . I cant sleep till like ard 1-2A.M . Boooo .

&~~I actually intend t msg this Nyahaha guyy but thought he might be asleep already .~~ Heeee . I-am-scared .

You can start asking me out people . Hahahhah . I'm starting t love band . *SCREEAMS!* Nyahha . Kay , bye . Muahs .

I'm pampered ;

2009-11-03T20:04:00.004+08:00

*BigSmile!* *PissedOff* Pfft . Hmfth . Tsk . Nyeeeet . Chet . Heee . Wake up early cause i'm taking my report book todayy&was supposed t meet my Mr.handsome form teacher at 8a.m but mum was busy w school stuffs . &so we were late . Bleah . Mum will NEVER be punctual , i repeatt NEVER . I realised that&she wont denies it . Nyahahah . Blabla . Dad asked for th report book *walks away* I mean , he walks away and walked back t me saying "Good" . Chet . Okay fine-h , better than nothing . Nyahah . Head back home&went back t school for band practices&i seriously hate copymeoww . If you're reading this , i'm so pissed of w you ! Everytime its like this . F.you arh . Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr ! *insertangryface* &i'm actually looking forward t band camp so as t bond w you , okay Ms.Copymeoww ? Can you dont ruined my mood . Pffft . &i bet this thursday i'll be going home alone again . &i realised that i cant be alone=I need a partner=I need companion=I cant live alone=I'm not independant=I need someone t take care of me=I cant be alone . Nyahahahah . Heeeh . I seriously cant alright . &i dont have a sense of direction&thats why i'm always lost . HAHA . Okay , you may laugh . Nyahhha . Ohh yarh ! That pig brain ; huimin senior of mine . Grrrrr ! She bullied me . Grrr ! Pffft . Pfft . Pfft . But i still love herr . Nyahhaha ! &did i tell you scratches appeared on my hand out of nowhere ? No i didnt tell you , okay i'm telling you now . Nyahahah . Peculiarly , i dont feel th slightest pain at all . Nyahhaha . Meowww . &yknow what ? You dont know , okay i'm informing you now . I earn 10 bucks just by accompanying mum t NTUC fairprice . *Evil laugh* Muahahahhah . I'm good arent i ? *Eyebrows up* Nyahahahha . &i need t save monehh t buy my big bottle of perfume which cost 50-60 bucks ? *Cry* Which is so impossible cause i'll spend all my monehh on clothes by than . Pfft . &mum is currently broke now . *SCREEAMS!* Okayy , i'm off . Ohh yarh ! *clap hand* Cause that tiger had finally update after how many decades , i mean months . Heee . Love youu . Muahs ! Ohh yarh ! I seriously need t start doing my holidays assignments . One whole stack of math worksheets waiting for me t complete it . Grrr ! Shah ! Make a study group asap , preety puhlease !

2009-11-02T16:34:00.004+08:00

Hello WORLD !
Shahidah here !
I need to please my dear husband and yeah .
Hello and GOODBYE !
atleast i did update .
Bye People !

Ohh Ya ! I fergot .
I miss Nurul Huda ALOT !

CRYOUTLOUD!

2009-11-02T14:30:00.003+08:00

This makcik here *look down* . Nyahah . Okay fineh , this wife tiger of mine cant come t my house todayy cause she need t cook -.- . Booooooooo ! &i was planning t buy starbucks . I'm craving for it . Hell yeah . Boooooo ! Wokayy , i'm going t write down th days tht i'm booked or have appointment , cheyyy . Nyahha .

Do you miss her more *look up* or me more *look down* ?!

Nyahahhah . *Bigsmile*

Band practices ;

3rd November ; Tuesday [Band ; 10a.m-5p.m]
5th November ; Thursday [Band ; 9a.m-3p.m]
10th November ; Tuesday [Band ; 10a.m-5p.m]
12th November ; Thursday [Band ; 12p.m-6p.m]
22nd December ; Tuesday [Band ; 9a.m-4p.m]
28th December ; Monday [9a.m-4p.m]

Band camp ;
[Assemble 2p.m] 17th November-20th November [Dismissed 12p.m]
Tuesday-Friday .

Holy shit . Can i cryyy ?!

Gahhhhhhh ! So dont bother t asked me out during those days *cryoutloud!*
&evil sis will be v.happy cause i wont be at home for four.4 days&three.3 nights . & she could used th laptop all day long . *SCREEEAMS!* *CRY!* Serious shits man . Miss me people . &th blog will be so dead during th days where i have camp , cause that tiger wife wont bother t update this blog . Grrrrr !

T hell w you ;

2009-11-01T20:11:00.003+08:00

*SCREEAMS!*

(I have no idea why i'm screaming,heh)

Err basically , i wasted my day on trivial stuffs . Woke up at 11a.m , bathe at 12 noon&watched this drama show . *SCREEEAMS!* Its a funneh kinda show . Okay fineh , its a love story . Duhhhh . Nyahha . Laughing hysterically . Siblings went out . Pfft&i'm stucked at home , rotting . Pfft . Helped mum w her students marks&BOOMZ , it was such a torture . *SCREEAMS!* Garhhhhhh . &did i mention i hate sweet talkers ?! *SCREEEAMS!* Th thought of it really makes me fuming mad . Garhhhhhh ! &i'm so not happy w that Monsterrr;Ira . She went sentosa&get t sit w my mat sallehs ?! Hmfth ! Garhhhh . &&i miss Mr.Nyahahaha . HAH . Another nickname . Heeeh . &i'll be rotting at home again tmr . Booooooooo . What a life . I wanna go t school ): I miss my Mr.handsome form teacher . *Bigsmile* Nyahahha !

You never say what you mean . You never know what you want . ~~But i started t go insane whenever you look at me .~~ I should really say goodbye now . I need t say goodbye . Cause i'll be th one suffering not you . Cause you dont give a f.shits about this stuffs or should i say me . My friend say i'm a fool t think that you're th one for me . But noww , pfft . You make me hate you , like seriously serious . I f.hate you ! You're better of dead . For once , i was disgusted by myself . Pfft ! You dont deserve any respect from me . T hell w you , sweet talker ! I was deserted . *curses!* I can be seriously mean at times . Goodbye sucker -.-

W luv .

.aaa

We're expected t pay a price for love .

Shut up ;

2009-10-31T23:33:00.001+08:00

I was wearing specs than . Heeee .

Dont asked me what i was doing . Cause i dont know too . Nyahahaha .

Its like as if im raping th door . Haahahahah .

I saw 11.11p.m , someone miss me . Nyahahah . I believe in this . Hee . &i miss him . Hee . Mr.(insertnamehere) . Thats so unexpected . Hell yeah . I always hated going Malaysia . But idk why , i feel like gg there . I wanna sit at th balcony camwhoring&thinking abt stuffs . Most peaceful place . Pfft . Except th part where there are no computers&that we had t wake up as early as 7-8 a.m just t have breakfast . Woahh . &ilove last year Hari Raya Haji which is being celebrated there cause my hothot cuzzies from taktaumanerh came t our house at malaysia&celebrate w us . *SCREEAMS!* &i think i should start checking on th school website regarding homeworks since im free tmr . Hee . Lie . Lied . Liar . Lying . Big f.liar . I feel so geraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam . TSK !

Happy Birthday Shahendra

Hakiem {!}

Enjoyy your birthday at camp . Nyahah .

&heed your grandma advice by following her t geylang .

Nyahahhahahaah , k jahat .

Happy Birthday (:

All love stories are the same ;

2009-10-31T15:38:00.005+08:00

My scheduled are tight this holiday . Cheyy . Nyahha . Band camps . Countless band practice{s} . I think i'll be close w copymeoww by than . Nyahaha . &outings . Study sessions with cliques . I need t study too , duhh . Will prolly have BBQ as class outing as we won the best class award ( is it best class award ? ) 3rd in position . &i supported th wrong class . Hahahahahhahahahahahahah . Its supposed t be 1E3 before 1E6 , i screeam out loud for class 1E3 . Hahahahahahahahah ! &everybody was like staring at me . Nyahahah ! Paisehy xD . Heee , so cute siaa . Hahaha . &shah was like teasing me all th way . Wtf luhh . Nyahahah . We had ICT test . It was such a hassle . Blablabla . &i received my report book back . &PFFT . 1st position t 3rd position ): Boooooooooooooooooooo ! Laling took my position . Wtf . Wtf . Wtf . Wtf . Hmfth . Hmfth ! F. that bloody bitch sis of mine . She's getting on my nerve . T hell w her like seriously . I wished she failed her o'levels next year . Blabla . Bad luck fall upon her . Omg , i'll be over th moon . I swear . I wished she'll be fat . Get fat . Forever fat . &i mean obese . GARH ! Cause yknow why ? Cause she kept calling me fat . T hell w her . I hate her . Seriously . Elder sis will be coming home during th holidays . *jumpsaround* I love her . I hate th other one . Hmpth . Boomz , its already 3+ . Fast or what ? Huahua . I wasted half of th day watching tv , blogging etc . Nyahah .

I regret . I regretted . I'm regretting . I used t asked this particular qn t this particular person&now im asking myself . What had become of me ? I hurt people and now its th vise versa . Fooh . Cool or what ? I seriously think im f.silly . I'm one stoopid short dufus who believes in guys words . -.- . I believed their sweet talkings . &now i really hate sweet talkers . I hate . I abhor . I detest . I'm tired . I'm f.exhausted from all this stoopid shits that i could collapse anytime . Hell yeah . I have t admit i've been sucha bitch lately , seriously serious . I cant take it anymore . I cant hold on anymore . I have got t changed this habit . This habit which led t my misery , agony , sufferings . Bleah . I could only blame on my stupidity , my sillyness . -.- . Bracelet guyy was being so f.frank w me . He still has th cheek t say those words t me ? Hah , i couldnt blame him . Cause i did let him down in a way . I know its hard t trust me back . Its th fact . I had apologised and had repeated th same mistake again . Mr.R was right abt me . Hmpth . I cant find th right words t say . I remembered e-ve-ry words tt he said . It just keep spinning around in my head . It dont matter now . As long as he's happy . & Mr.bracelet guyy dont act as if you care . Care for your other girl eyy . Heh . T think i would be so stoopid t fixed 'it' back . Hah , what a joke . I should stop wearing it now . I should start deleting his 'saved messages' which i had been keeping all this while . Nyahah . My imagination went too far . -.- . Confusing eyy ? So many nicknames i named for different guyys . Nyahah . I feel so pathetic . Ohh yarh ! &im gg t take back my sentence which i had said in th previous post : " I hate myself " Heeeeee . I dont hate myself . I love me . Hahahahaah . I just hate th way i act ; character . You seee . I felt th same way as Mr.R felt in th past . In agony . Nyahahah . I dont believed in love starting from this minute onwards . Unless any guy prove it t me . Nyah . I know you dont believe me . Cause i dont even know if i meant what i just said . Nyahahahahahaha . One after another had left . Nyahahah . I just love t emphasized on this , that . Huahua . All had officially left me . Mark my words ,
i will change.
Goodbye .

Love story ; All love stories are th same .

Once upon a time , a guy falls in love w a girl . Th guyy really loves th girl&so th girl loves him too and gave him a chance . Th girl played w th guyy feelings and th girl than broke up w th guyy for another guyy . Th girl than regretted . She blamed herself for her stupidity&she continue loving that guyy w/o letting him knows . After few months , waiting . They were together again . Th girl was thankful&treated th relationship seriously . She promised herself not t repeat th same mistake again . But as days passed by , th girl realised tht th guyy didnt pay much attention t the girl . Th girl cried . &in th end th guyy broke up w th girl . She was devastated but she didnt learned her lesson , she still loves th guy , despite knowing that she'll get hurt again . She continue t wait&wait&wait for th day t come . Cause she believes that she still have th chance t be w th guyy . After waiting for few months , th guyy told th girl that he had fall back in love w her . She was over th moon and forgotten her problems regarding Mr.R . She believed th guyy cause th guyy told her that he reallyreallyreallyreally loves her . Th girl believed his sweet talks&waited for him . Things were going well but after awhile th guyy told th girl that he had fall in love w another girl . &that he had promised th another girl , he will love her till whenever . Th girl obviously cried , duhh . Th guyy than apologised t th girl . Th girl understood that th guyy had difficulty trusting th girl . From there , she learned her lessons&she promised herself t changed . But she did not have th chance t do so . Cause th girl died in th end .

W luv ,

.aaa

SAD ;

2009-10-30T20:56:00.001+08:00

E-ve-ry-bo-dy leaving's me ;

Its th end of th year . Time flies so fast . It had been such a wonderful , bizarre (idc about th spelling) , hectic , fantastic , whatever you can think of , year . I am sad . I am sad . I am sad . I am sad . I am sad . I am sad . I am really sad . I hate myself , really . Stop . I'm stopping this . I'm stopping this . I cant carry on doing this for life . People will start hating me . I need t stop . I'm sorry . I'm sorry . I'm sorry . Everyone's leaving me one by one . Retribution . He intend t leave me . He's leaving me . He had already left me . I dont want history t repeat itself . Its so heart aching . I dont want . I dont want . *cry* I cant take it anymore . I'm too sad . I wanna runawayyy . Runawayy . I really want t . I want . *cry* Somewhere upup . Somewhere high . Hah . This world is full of (insertanythinghere) and (insertanythinghere) I was too naive . Blame it all on my stupidity , my sillyness . Big dreams . Hah , what a joke . I cant smile so stop asking me t smile or tell me t be happy . I am just too sad , can you get it . I'm talking t myself , you see . Duhh . I hate sweet talker . Stop your sweet talkings . I'll seriously believe it . I cant think cause i am just too sad , like hell yeah . T hell with me . T hell with you (im referring t anybody) . T hell with everybody . T hell with this freaking world . I'm blabbering nonsence , dont blame me . Cause i'm just too sad . I wanna die now but i cant bring myself t kill myself . Could you do me a favour by killing me ? Anybody . Cause i .. I just dont want t live . GARH ! I'll continue with my "dying " later on , Hahahha . Cause i want t cry . Kay bye .

I Wanna cry ;

2009-10-29T19:55:00.003+08:00

All of these pictures are taken at different places , different days . Duhh .

Did i just did that ? I just did that . Why th hell did i did that ? I f.did that . I f.dk what t do now . Was i stoopid or stoopid ? *SCREEAMMSS* F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F. Idk , i just want runawayyyyyyyy . Bye .

I feel like im being ignored .
Guhreat for himhim , not him , but himhim . Nyahhah .
Lost . Lost . Lost .

Again ;

2009-10-26T20:35:00.001+08:00

I have got nth t blog .

Happy Birthday Ummu Shukriyah

Bte Azman {!}

Nyahahah . Wo ai ni *insertbigsmile*

Nyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet ;

2009-10-25T13:54:00.000+08:00

Sis will be using th laptop for th whole day todayy , i guess . Boo . I had send him this suuperr long message at 12a.m . Nyahahahha . &i realised i've been sleeping v.late , ard 12-1a.m . Nyahahah . And woke up v.late , ard 1++p.m . Nyahahah . &i cant wait t go school , idk why . I just miss school . Muahaha . &Ira just text me saying tt she dont want t live till 30 years old&planning t kill herself when she's 15 years old . Can you ppl stop having th intention t kill yourself ? Whats so guhreat abt it ? Th only 'guhreat' thingy is tt you dont have t worry about your problems , cause you're dead . Duhh . HAHAHA . Wth am i saying . Nyahahha . Pfft . Sis&i had been watching hindustan recently . Nyahahah . Okay i'm off . Miss me people . Nyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet .

Mr.pink disappear .

He really didnt contact me .

Where are you ? :(

HappyBirthday ;

2009-10-25T13:36:00.002+08:00

&i whisper Happy Birthday , Mr.Rapist ;

Nyahahaha .

Nyahahaha !

2009-10-24T18:07:00.003+08:00

Make them say my name ;

Stayed at home .
Watched Mohabbatein todayy ( is tt th correct spelling ? ) Nyahaha .
Ira called me , she's flying kites now . Nyahahah .
I'm craving for ice-cream from yesterday .
Chatting with irfann .
I'm effing bored .
I miss Mr.pink badly .
Mr.pink didnt contact me for 123456789 days .
I wonder what he's doing now .
I miss him , did i say that ? Yes , i did . Nyahaha .
I'm addicted t th song Tanpa . Nyahaha .
I miss my wife . *snore*
&aliff just called me babi . HAHA ! *snore*

I'm going t upload this selenger ~~cute~~ picture of mine . &i think you guys are going t laughlaughlaughlaughlaugh . Nyahahahahahaha . Fine-h , laugh for all you want . Here it goes :

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Ta-daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah !

Laugh now .

Nyahahahahahahahaahahah !

Today's 24th . Tmr 25th . Th day aft tmr is 26th . Th day aft tmr tmr tmr is 28th .

Nyahhahaha !

Because of me ;

2009-10-23T23:44:00.000+08:00

Conversation ;

I hate todayy . Cause i went out with f.sis t amk hub . Halfway we fought&i was v.upset . Idk what t do , i hide in th toilet , in cubicle crying for minutes . Dk where t go , i texted my wife&she called me . She was v.worried . &i hung up th phone& i went back home . F.sis complained t mum , but she didn't scold me . Muahahahah . I f.hate my sis . I f.love my elder sis in australia . I've made friend with a guyy name Ken , he's chinese&he's cute . But Mr.pink is more cuter . You see , i'm devoted t him . So he better treat me well . Cause i had reject guys for him . Nyahahaha ! . Thats a fake laugh . Cause i cant smile . I'm v.upset . If i were t smile , it'll be so fake than . GARH ! Currently chatting with scandal&swiswi . Teehee . Both knows my problems . Pfft . Pfft . Pfft .

Me : ....At least i'm more popular than you ! Huahua !

Mr.S : I dont need t be popular . I'm better of unpopular and always be happy .

&i think he's seriously right . &that makes me seriously think . &i seriously dont want t cry every single day , be it in th middle of th night or during th day -.- &ileft this post unattended for hours till its 11.50p.m now , hahah . Kay , bye .

He send me long messages again .

Thank you{s}

2009-10-22T23:49:00.000+08:00

Mr.Rapist : but im lazy to help her. u go help her.

Mrs.Fault : wth ? no wonder she said you've change

Mr.Rapist : im solving my own probs. help yourself, b4 you help others.

This is what i think , you may or may not believe this :

He loves making people cry . Or should i say he loves making me cry . He loves seeing me cry , maybe ? Because i've hurt him . He has changed alot . &i mean alot . He is no different from his good friend now . &its my fault cause i had changed him . He said i had hurt him and that is why he had changed . He admitted that he's now heartless cause i took away his heart . He says i did not appreciate him when i was with him (indirectly) He took every words i had said t him for real . He wasnt like this . He used t be a good guyy . He used t help others before himself ? Okayy , not sure . But he changed , he really changed . I couldnt accept th fact that I was th one who changed him . It was me ! Its me . It was me whom had changed him . Blame me . Yes , blame me . He changed because of me . He's in this state because of me . &it all comes back t me . He wants me t feel indebted t him . He wants me t remember this mistake . He wants me t remember that i was th one who hurt him . He wants me t remember that it was all my f.fault . Basically he wants me t feel guilty . I dont want him t be like this , behaving like "this" . Its so heartaching , really . A good guyy who had really turned into a bad guyy . His friends will/would hate him . All because of me ? This little , short girl ? Oh my gawd . I cant take it anymore . What am i supposed t do now ?! Can i slap his face&wake him up t his senses ? He's being so sarcastic , like seriously . He had turned evil , no he musnt . Eventhough he denies it . He had turned evil ! I can only cry now . WhyOhhWhy . God .

It was me , Nurulhuda Bte Suaini who had changed Mr.rapist {!}

*CRY!*

Am bored ;

2009-10-22T22:20:00.002+08:00

I-have-alot-of-things-t-say .

I had went t tamp mall&far east t shopped for clothes .

I had received my results back&i passed all of them . Heehee !

I was send t detention . My mum dont know .

I wanna runaway t australia now .

I had talked with my rapist partner&still talking ; Farhana . Huahua .

She said:"Dont look at his PMs!It'll remind you of everything,looked at my DP,chio kan?!

HAHAHAHAH .

She make me laugh like hell . Nyahahahahahah !

My stomach hurts , like hell .

&Mdm.R is v.funneh .

She took over th malay lessons&she's so dramatic .

I swear . &i loikeeeeee . Hahahaha . Fine-h .

There was one part where she talked about

"jangan menggatal , ckp "Hi" Naive , Miss world lagi lawa "

She was looking at me with "thatkindoflooked"

I was like woah ? Huahuahua !

&&she pronounced minahrep as minah rapp !

Cuteeee or what ?! Seriously , so funneh .

&Nigel was like telling me how big megan fox boobs is ? LOL .

&did i mentioned that i've watch Jennifer's body ALREADY ?

*SCREAAAMS!*

Nyahahahahah !

&i want-t-go-out-tmr luhh . Pfft .

I dont wish t stay at home , seriously .

lovelovelovelovelovelovelovemr.pink(: Nyahahahaha !
Ira is making me laugh but it didnt work .

I'll remember those memories , Mr.Rapist ;

2009-10-19T11:44:00.001+08:00

Shahidah's back {!}

I meant this is Huda , I'm just saying that she's finally back . Heehee . So i'm currently talking t her . I miss her alot , you see . & she bought me a gift . Heeh ! I told her my all time problems . Ohh , boohoo . I just saw 11.11a.m . Someone miss me , haha . Kay , diam . Okay so yest , had " PM's " talking on msn with Mr. Rapist . It was really 'saddening' that i cant help t cry again . Boo me . &Ira cried cause she was too sad t see us in that situation :( &Mr.swiswi , it really wasnt your fault . Just let me suffer , alright ? It all started because of me , i'll bear th consequences . Don't worry . Don't try t avoid me&stuffs , I'll really kill you if you do that . Hmfth . Talk otp with Mr. Eherm yest . Heee . *BigSmile* He's sick . Boo . I told him abt Mr.Rapist&he went ohh I see&Dont cry . Huahua . He's so cute (: Hee . I love him . Hee (: Will be going t tamp today t shop&shop&shop . Have i told you ? I think i did , Heheh . I'm hungryyyy&i havent bath . KwangKwangKwang . Sis is now watching hindustan -.- Dah takder citerh laen nak tgk . Lol . Okay , i think thats all . Will update again later , i guess . Hee . Adious . Ohh yarh , i loveeeeeee Nasrah (:

IraaaMonsterr says : I could love everybody i want cause people will love me back .

FarhanaSweetheart says : Well, its kinda stoopid to reject a guy who really loves you alot. Its rare you knw. Some just said that they love you, but, its nt from the heart. i pity u dear.. but, look, do u really love him. its either yes or no. ask your heart. deep down, i know you still do.

&i say : Mr.Eherms told me t wait for him&i had promise Mr.Eherms thats i'll wait for him .

I had promise , i couldnt break this promise . I had swear , i really had swear .

I cannot make th same mistake again (this is th third time!)

Mr.Eherms said he loves me&so i said i love him too .

2009-10-18T15:59:00.001+08:00

Love.drunk ;

I couldnt sleep yest . Cause of this tating flu , really . I kept sneezing . &worst of all th nose block thingy . &i couldnt talk w Mr.___ otp yest . Urgh . Pfft . Otp ; (reminds me of eherm , hee) &i'm still sick . Hee . Mum told me t go t doctor but i'm just plain lazy , besides i dont want t be given MC . Huahua . &i swear panadol doesnt help at all , really . Pfft . I still eat ice , cold drinks when i'm not supposed t . Heeh . Maid was like :

M : Takleh minum air sejuk , nurul demam kan !
Me : Takperh sket jerh , sket jerh .
M : Takleh ! Nina jangan kasik dia !

Hahahah . Cute or what ? Hee . I'm sick . I'm sick . I'm sick . I'm sick . Yay . Heeh . Wife , come back puhlease . I need you t take care of me . How could you not take care of your husband ? I need your advises . I need you ! I need you , now ! Pfft . Come back quickly puhlease , pretty puhlease . *showsadface* I dont wanna go band on tue . I'm just plain lazy t carry th instrument t school . Pfft . Pfft . Ohh Pfft ! I'm thinking of putting it inside my bag . Hah ! Kay diam . Bluek ! I dont wanna go . I dont . I dont . Why th hell did i choose that cca ? Pfft . Pfft . Boo . I miss Mr. ____ . Imissyou.Imissyou.Imissyou . Time flies so slow today . Will be going tamp tmr t shopshopshopshopshop&shopshopshop . Hee . Hee . Will be meeting Asyraf(: on friday , i guess ? Huahua .

*You're giving up already so there's no point doing 'that' , sweetheart . You're only hurting yourself . Really . Dont , puhlease ..

I love you forever . Forever is over .

Sha , i need you :(

2009-10-17T15:04:00.000+08:00

I have t blog this . I feel v.uneasy , vv.uneasy .

A post for you , Mr .

I'm sick . V.sick . I've got a fever . My throat hurts . Really hurts . I can barely talk . I cried . Cried th whole day . &i think i'll cry in th middle of th night too . My eyebags are heavy , v.heavy . Was i really wrong ? Am i too much ? Am i really heartless ? Did i really treat him like 'that' ? Was i really stoopid ? Did i've gone too far ? Did i ever considered his feelings ? Yes/No/Idk . We had a fight . No , a quarrel . I cant hep but t read th messages over&over again . Idk why , i'll cry whenever i read it , regardless of th content . I cant help it . I cant stop th tears . I cant . Yes , called me a weakling , cry baby&whatever you want . I'm v.guilty , v.guilty . I've really made a grave mistake this time . I cant believe i did such thing , really . I'll breakdown th moment he went with his "dont worry about me ! Get t know him better ! Who knows , maybe he'll like you too ! " *Cry* &th most heartaching is when he said "U told me t give up , U really want me t give up .Than so be it "

She dont have t consider me .. She wont be confused .. . If you're depressed than what am i ? Save you th misery ? Show you some respect ? Been treated like a dust&an invinsible one too ? So you mean , all this while i did not respect you at all ? Means , you were in pain/misery all this while when you're with me ? You could have tell me , really . I'll be more confused ! Urgh , i really feel like (insertanythinghere) you ! Yarh , blame me for everything , your misery , your pain&stuffs . I was merely saying that "i think i'm falling in love" &you really went t believe it ? I told you i'm just sec one = small kid = naive = couldnt think like adult . I dont even know if i really love him . But yknow what , continue having a thought like that , spare you from th misery kan ? Its all my fault from th start . Giving you false hope&stuffs kan ? Curse me , scold me , hate me , if it makes you feel better . I had swore t myself i wouldn't cry for guys anymore , but because of you i broke this chain/swore , whatever . I dont want t cry , i really dont . Why must you do this t me . Or you think , you should be th one asking that qn ? I had actually bought your present&now i hesitate on whether t give you or th vise versa . I hate this . I hate my life . Things always dont go th way i wanted it t be . I dont know who t love or maybe i shouldnt love anyone ? Yes , i shouldnt love anyone . You made me choose this path . Are you happy now ? I was stoopid t give up a guy like you . Maybe shahidah is right after all . Sha where are you ? I really need you now , im sorry . I need you . *Cry* You're one in a million , every girls dream guy . Was a big mistake t fall in love with me from th start . You deserve a better girl kan ? I'm not worthy , yeah . I'm so fickle minded . Gosh . Hope you find your dream girl&led a happy life&feel that you're th happiest guy on earth . Ohh crap , i'm in no position t wish you luhh kan . Hate me . I'm sorry Mr .

&besides that i cried because i read my brother's blog about him quitting smoking&that he repented&stuffs . I cant help t cry cause its so unbelievable&touching&whatever . &peculiar that i'll cry because of him . Heh .

Am i proud t have a brother like that ? (sometimes , heh)

I don't have th mood t do anything except t blog .

I'm feeling v.upset .

I feel like i'm dying any moment of time .

Th countless cry is worsening my fever .

I hate this .

I want t die , i mean it .

th two retards

Farewell partayee :(

CIP-Car Wash .

I'm baccccccck ! -.aaa

F.you

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Syauqiyahhhh :(

" EY FATTY ! " HAHAHAHAHAHAH !

I saw 11.11 again ;

Mum says i could get married when i'm 26 years old . NYAHAHAHAH !

MOTHER

There's so many terase people in this world ;

Lets ignore you bitch ;

Sex therapy is in session ; seduce and get seduced .

You can have her then , bye .

Babi kau arh sial ;

Somehow its ____ .

FCUK

I miss you too N.iman (:

Sylvia \m/

86 400 seconds ;

Cause i'm easily jealous ;

Dilemma ;

Lets die .

Love her .

Webcammed ;

HOHOHO , Merry Christmas ! :D

I've been getting angryy over th slightest teeny weeny stuffs ; Moodswings

Awesome ;

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Avatar ;

My cat's gorgeous :D

Anger&hatred ;

&listen t th thunder ;

Marina Barrage ;

Twist story ;

Bewildered state ;

causeuragayy

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Therapist // The Rapist - F taught me *Wink*

Stop and stare ; .aaa

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Kuala Lumpur ;

I gotta be strong ;

Wednesday night ;

I've straightened out my thoughts ;

No one ;

You took everything from me ;

I brought this upon myself ;

Dreww Royy ;

Day out w , loves ;

Pictures ;

Day out w aunt&cousins ;

*roll eyes*

Trip ;

M'sia ;

Iraaaaaaaaaaaaaa ;

Nasraaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ;

Boredddddddddddddddd ;

Contract ;

Shasha ;

Missing ;

This feeling ;

Class gathering ;

Yes , i'm back !

Grrrrrrr ;

Forgive me ):

Love ;

I dont feel right .

Burn th midnight oil ;

Booooooooooooooo ;

Nyhahahah <33333

Grrrrr ;

I'm pampered ;

*CRYOUTLOUD!*

T hell w you ;

Shut up ;

All love stories are the same ;

SAD ;

I Wanna cry ;

Therapist // The Rapist - F taught me Wink

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CRYOUTLOUD!